How bad was Your PMO Addiction? Please take a Poll

Yes. I agree completely. I surmise there are other lasting effects and the addiction is to dopamine MORE than it is to porn. Finding healthy alternatives is critical.

 

I pmo’ed every day before I went to sleep, 30-60 min on free sites. I already knew I was an addict and red some stuff about potential risks, so I did not allow real freaky stuff or bingein. I always searched for the perfect vanilla scene and started my PMO session. After a while it didn’t turn me on anymore so I quitted a few days and then I used it again.

The sad part about using before you’re going to sleep is that without it falling asleep is so much harder.
In one relapse I used because I was so sick of my insomnia and guess what after using the insomnia vanished, porn is a real drug.

 

Keeping even a week of no PMO is hard for me. Usually it last for 3 to 4 days. Then i would go on binge porn even if i know this is bad thing and i edge till i fap. Then i continue to fap 3-4 times a that day and the cycle continues

 

Stick to it! It will be really hard for a while, I got so horny I was ready to burst, but when you get past that stage, it really calms down. For the last two or three days, the super horniness has gone away and I'm still horny but it's mild enough so it actually feels good and I occasionally feel like reaching down there when something reminds me of sex, but the urge isn't that strong and I actually don't want to look at porn.

BTW, your problem is so bad that if NoFap doesn't work for you, you should go to a psychologist for treatment of obsessive sexual behavior. They have a very high success rate.

 

I just started on nofap. Just spent a month in a hotel room by myself and PMO every day. For many years I did PM maybe 3 or 4 times per week, lasting for maybe a couple of hours at a time, with one O at the end. My way of escalating was to use poppers. I would buy a bottle maybe once every two months. Once I had a bottle the PMO drug became so intense that I wanted to do it more frequently (maybe twice a day for a week) until I got so fed up that I threw away the bottle and had a rest for a few days. I bought a bottle again last week when I came back home from the month in a hotel, and came across a hypno video which kept saying "give in to P, this is your future"--and at the end of it I felt: Yes, they are right: this IS my future!! And I don't like it at all!! So then I signed up for nofap.

 

I had a basic knowledge of hyno videos but didn't know they are as blatant as you just described. Unbelievable. Please stay away from that stuff!

 

Yes definitely! Strange thing is though: I think because this video was so totally blatant about it that it actually had an effect on me of wanting to get out! It showed in unmistakable terms what I was already doing, and have been doing for many many years, and would be doing for the rest of my life unless I break the habit.

 

Hey Fenix! Hope all is good with you. Like the counter you got going as well. One question I wants to ask and that is I believe I have some depression but doesn’t effect my life too much and maybe I carry too much stress on me every day. Driving, rushing to work, etc. I have been hard mode for almost a year but libido not really coming back. There has been edging her and there and there is some HOCD as well. I am seeing someone now and we have finally gotten intimate for once but no arousal. I wonder if now it all psychological and need to find a way to release stress or anxiety about getting intimate.
Well, my addiction since high school was a lot and not a lot of sexual experience. I wonder if I will take another year or so to get my mind back in order.

 

I have no problem admitting that I have (and still might have?) addictive personality traits - PMO fit right in with that like a glove as a part of my "routine". Also had depression/anxiety issues too.

A typical day would see me M twice - once in the morning, when I was showering up at the gym after a workout (was lots of visual stimulation there......) and then once after I got home from work and was settling down in front of the computer before dinner (usually with P). Sometimes there'd be 2+ sessions after work there too (occasionally things would vary a tad).

 

Good to see this bumped as the more votes the better picture it gives everyone. Whilst I know that everyone's circumstances and view of their problem is different, everyone that has come here and registered accepts to themselves that they have got a problem.

Whilst I fit into the lower end brackets, in terms of frequency and viewing time, what I had started to do was to watch porn for no real reason other than to watch porn. Often I would find myself stealing time away from kids to watch, 5 or 10 minutes of porn on my phone with no intention of masturbating. That's when I realised that it was problematic behaviour.

 

I feel you man. When everybody is talking about how much times did you PMO, I feel a little bit weird because I didnt do it really often (2-3 times per week), but the intensity of my sessions...I used to get aroused almost all Day by fantasizing/repeating scenes or Images in my head. And when it got to the final point-PMO, I quickly jumped to the state of extreme tension and excitement and tried to orgasm just in the perfect moment. I swear it was like some hard drug, and after a year of abstinence Im still not completely free from it.

 

Really really bad. Kept telling myself not to nut on Christmas, Birthdays etc. but then kept doing it anyway. I lowered my standards for myself because of porn. But now I have some self respect and I can walk with my head held high knowing that I'm almost a month free. Fuck porn, fuck the mainstream culture pushing it, and I'm very bad at pretending to be angry. Have a nice day everyone

 

I think frequency changes over time. I would say that from 14 to my mid 20's it was close to once each day. For the last ten years though it was more like an average of once or twice each week.

What did change however was that the earlier sessions probably lasted only 15 to 30 mins (maybe due to the length of time it took to download a clip), while since 2006 the sessions tended to last much longer I. E. several hours

 

This. This is why I think the internet and porn has getting distinctly worse in past years. It's a never ending scroll with no distinct end. Your brain keeps thinking, hey MAYBE there's the perfect scene just a little bit further. To the point where you don't even stop and watch things that should be amazing because there may be something better further down. Ugh. It's awful.

 

I think for 20 years it has been, average data, 1 hour per day

 

Yeah, I felt that I don't give a fuck attitude myself a lot the last few months as well. I am trying hard to keep myself motivated with work as well. I am getting regular morning wood as well but not getting that arousal from talking, meeting girls as well. I am talking and seeing someone now but still nervous if I cannot perform. It could be just anxiety to perform as well and I am not relaxing enough. Going to work on meditation a bit more to try and resolve this. I think everyone is different Fenix in going over the year mark. I fee like I will need more time because of the bit extreme porn I was starting to watch and trying to get my arousal normalized to humans again. I am thinking another year but wanted to date just to see where things were at. I know there are stories out there with a good amount of older people needing two years for the addiction. I have heard three years to completely get rid of it but people are different.
It's like this Fenix, I want a relationship I think and then hopefully in the future move towards something serious. Either it's the addiction and healing that is not letting me feel it or it is just not the right person I have now... What do you think...?? Maybe it is just a matter of being with this girl longer and forming a closer bond which is probably a good thing to do. so, yeah it is like I have no need to do it either. Now, when I go work out I literally get a rush of feeling good and I would like to grab a girl near me right away. That is the only time I feel a want to have sex with someone and I am usually by myself too.