Autumn Challenge [30 DAYS]

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As a lover of both Autumn and self-improvement, this challenge seems like a perfect fit for me!

I've gone 3 days without PMO, mostly - I edged a few times (not with porn or p-subs, just being haunted by memories), but I don't want to reset the counter yet because my brain will use that as an excuse to go all the way. So for the sake of the challenge we'll start at Day 0!
Today was a bit rough as far as urges go, and I wasn't as productive as I would've liked to be, but the Panic Button is a godsend. I wouldn't have made it this far without that encouragement so easily available.
Today I found these particularly encouraging:
https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/3bhicl/if_youre_about_to_relapse_read_this/
https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/67bbdp/desire_is_like_the_thirst_of_a_person_who_drinks/
https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1c0jxx/as_a_living_breathing_nonporn_woman_i_cant_thank/

 

Day 0...
This was going to be a day of triumph. Urges came at me hard, and I came dangerously close to pulling up porn, but thankfully Covenant Eyes takes a long time to uninstall, and I was able to tide myself over until I had to leave the house. It wasn't pretty, but I won. I'm now 6 days porn free.
Then the power went out...
As I said earlier, my habit is to slam on the panic button as soon as urges come my way. But I couldn't do that without the Internet. Left with nothing but my thoughts, I didn't put up much of a fight. It was embarrassing. I know I can do better. I refuse to blame this on the power outage, this was entirely my fault - I had plenty of chances to go for a jog or take a cold shower, and just refused to take them.

This is the first time I've relapsed since making this account, and I noticed that I felt much more guilty and ashamed than usual after failing myself like that. I think that's a great sign, and I'm optimistic about the challenge ahead. I'm down, but I'm not out!

As an aside, here's another of my favorite Reddit posts to come from the panic button -
https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/3hqyll/new_reasons_more_encouraging_less_shaming/

 

I wanna join!!
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