The Lord of the Rings Challenge

One week PMO free
My mind is still talking me about watching porn, was a hard fight but it is not over yet!

 

I've also been having dangerous thoughts. The earlier you recognise them and realise them for what they really are, just thoughts, they lose power over you. But I find that when I fail to stop that "little voice" in my head for too long I'm already playing with fire in terms of relapse risk.

Reading that back it makes me sound kind of insane. And maybe I am, because I really feel this sort of "other presence" egging me on to use porn sometimes. Maybe it's just my subconscious rationalising this part of me as separate from my normal thought process, but it doesn't even sound like my normal thinking voice. What's more, I find what works best for silencing it is speaking to it directly and refuting all it's claims about PMO, a kind of self-talk. Freaky shit.

And yeah, I think @RiseToGreatness changed around Dwarf and Elf, so that Elf is now before Dwarf (as it should be, dwarves are the superior race ;^) ).

I'm an Uruk-Hai again now, by the way. At least, I will be by the end of the day.

 

Day 1/90 going to complete

 

Day 18

 

Day 20
1 day until I hit the 3 week mark

 

Day 1 completed successfully

 

I think it's a very good think to realize the thoughts and urges of porn are not us. We have this "other presence" that affects us but is not who we truly are. Separating from these demons helps us realize that we have a virus but we are not a virus. It's very easy to be manipulated by this "other presence," so I thank you for your kind words of encouragement. I'm going to try speaking directly to it rather than simply trying to repress it.

Also, thanks for the explanation about the ranks. That makes sense!

I'm about 1 week from a new record. My best so far might be 46, so my goal is 50.

 

Had no chance for the daily check-in yesterday evening, went out so...

Saturday:
NoPMO: Day 06
Productive Days from that: 3
Overslept in the morning, still was productive for the rest of the day
However I don't count it as productive...

Sunday:
NoPMO: Day 07
Productive Days from that: 3
Overslept (because I arrived late at home), was visited by some family member, also worked out and prepared myself for another job interview.
However also don't count it as an productive day, let's say it was weekend!

I made it to 7 days, a whole week! Means also, I'm a Uruk-Hai now! @RiseToGreatness How are you doing?

Life's much better without PMO. It's an complete diffrent feeling, when you're rewarded for achieving something important - it lasts longer and make you feel proud of yourself. PMO just feels good while you're doing it, but even then, you mostly feels ashamed, always concerned, someone will catch you and stuff. Afterwards there's only shame and selfhate. It's not good! And it's not worth it.

I'm back... Destroy this addiction forever - together!

 

On day 19

 

Still going! Have a week off for half term so I need to keep myself preoccupied lest any urges creep up on me

 

Day 2 completed successfully

 

NoPMO: Day 08
Productive Days from that: 4
Get up early, worked out, walked the dog and studied - today was a good day, however feel pretty down at the moment. But could also be the fatigue.

Good to hear! Feel proudly to be part of this challenge and fight on your side!

 

Day 21
Completed 3 weeks of NoFap. Never been this confident, happy and concentrated in my life. Can't wait what the future holds for me!

 

Daily check in. Things are going very well. Almost a new lifetime record. I'm so excited!