Embarrassing Fetishes: will nofap remove them?

Hello, a new fapstronaut here. I came to this website after realizing that I need help with my fetish addictions to super unusual things that I want to go. The first one is a fat fetish. For a very long time I have had a very bad fetish towards big girls, often with them just eating, showing off their stomach or whatever and it has been tearing away at me for ages. I hate this fetish. It's unhealthy, I don't want it to be a part of me anymore. I'm way too embarrassed about it to tell anyone. Oftentimes I feel horrible and like garbage because of it. Next for whatever reason a fetish I have for muscular/dominant/ strong woman, another unhealthy fetish. Both of them greatly hinder me and make me want to throw up. So I started nofap the 5th of October and made great progress. I noticed better workouts with subtle muscle growth and my acne was starting to go away a bit but not completely due to me always picking at which only makes it worse.

Unfortunately yesterday I peeked for a small second and immediately regreted it. Well I did make some progress, before I would have gone through and full blown relapsed, however this time I was able to break away and see what I did was wrong. While on nofap, I also noticed very weird Mood swings switching from being full of energy, to tired, to anxious, to crying last night. Is this all normal?

 

I won't do it again. I'm subtracting 3 days off my counter as well since I didn't go through with it and just tap out before it escalated into something worse.

Edit: Also I don't know where my fetishes originated from.

 

Thanks for the help man. Some days I don't have urges and others I find them chasing me and tormenting me. Even as I get closer and closer to my goal of actually going through with this, I've been feeling awfully nervous and shaky, similar to how a smoker who quits feels not getting their fix but, so far it worked very well except for yesterday where I did a very tiny peek. Since I regained control and stopped asap I just decided to subtract 3 days.

Also another question, are urges a sign that the brain is healing or no? I just want them to go away.

 

Well it's a good thing I bounced back. With a decent head start into NNN I'm aiming for a 90+ day streak. But because I did masturbate since my early teen years, my brain will probably need a lot more than just 3 months to rewire.

It's a pleasure to be here. I wish I knew about the bad things about Masturbation and PMO when I was younger.

 

It's not healthy for them. Plus I'm deeply embarrassed by it.

 

Not 400 kilos, but rather heavier girls in general. I don't think it's normal to be attracted to that.