Loss of strength and sense of manliness

Yes brother, i can understand those feelings.
Don't worry, we can win over this bad habit.
Exercise, eat healthy food, socialize..!! Don't worry, you are not alone!
There are many people who have walked through this path and seen sunshine!
Keep walking in the path of resort
Reboot!
All the best!

 

Read this brother: 6 years clean

 

I see that you are 20 I am 28, i feel a lot similar to you even when I was on 140+ streak, I was feeling like I did when I fap, i think it was because I did not do my best. Its been years since I did my best in anything..over the years my will power has become shit. I rarely take cold showers anymore, I never finish anything that I started, I keep lying myself that I will work hard some time in the future, which never happened in 6 years. I just do the minimum to get by, I have been unemployed for 6 years already for my age.

My advice to you is, have goals, meet them and feel the confidence within! Make list of things which you are proud of! Godspeed!

 

Don't worry brother, this is great 140+ streak!
Keep on going, you will get a good job and all the good things will happen to you!

 

Those feelings of emptiness can be a result of some kind of void that abstinence from PMO creates for some time before you start to fill in that void with other activities. Giving up PMO is not only giving up a bad and destructive habit, it is also giving up a huge part of your personality you have had until that point.
At the moment your ego is threatened, it will crave your attention more than ever and hence trying to pull you back which might be why you feel such emptiness.
Also, what are your current habits like?
Because, if your current habits are poor, it will be much more difficult to feel and experience any benefits from NoFap and many small bad habits combined will have a huge overall impact on the sensitivity of your senses, mind and soul. So, by replacing your current bad habits (one at a time) you will progressively feel better and by time, the former bad and destructive feelings will slowly fade away.

 

This might help:

https://www.reddit.com/r/GetSuave/comments/40hx2x/inner_confidence_part_iii_affirmation/

 

I have moved from low to rather decent self-confidence.

One advice I may give you is that you need to still your mind. You are not your (self-negative) thoughts! Shift your sense of self into your whole body. Make it healthy and it will make you happy: Sports, meditation, healthy food, yoga, dance, sauna, sex and/or healthy M, spending time in nature, regular sleep, breathing ... Don't do it to optimize your looks (it will happen as a side effect anyways), don't do it to impress anybody (same), don't do it because it's a trendy lifestyle, don't push yourself too hard and don't exaggerate anything. Do it as simple acts of self-care. Each act of self-care is a step on the stairs of self-love and acceptance.
Stop wallowing in your drama, embrace the current emptiness. You've led yourself to a crucial point, which is brave. Any crisis is a cocoon and once you eclose, you'll be much more beautiful.

 

You should help yourself.

What can I advice you, is try to find a thing you're good at. On such foundation you can build your self-confidence. It's very important. You won't became self confident because you want it and nothing more. It's a process and You need to change your life by small steps.

Live healthy life, do your chores, exercise, paint or write. I don't know your capabilities but everyone has some things he's good at.
I had to cut off from most of my friends because they usually doesn't care about my opinions and I was something like observer, not a member of our group. You should find someone who treat you properly and not abuse you.

 

Hi ThyArtofLust,

You are apparently very intelligent! I think you should try to create, write, producte etc. something which makes you feel proud and is visible for everyone. Compliments will matter when you are truly proud of something that you have created. You can also seek a part-time job with fulfillment or maybe even start your own service/company.

Goodluck!