Newbie here, in desperate need of nofap

Just signed up to day, one of my first posts.

I decided to join this forum after having engaged in prone masturbation for about 14 years. Earlier this year I started to experience problems though at first they were actually unrelated to prone. But that is when I found out about the dangers of fapping prone and have been struggling to quit since. I have no been able to go more than two weeks and when I relapse I relapse hard, sometimes jerking off three to four times after relapsing.

I started to feel pain at the base of my penis, especially on the left side, and overtime I noticed my erections started pointing down and to the right. I saw two urologist s about it but neither noticed anything, then after my own research I found it it is likely a problem with my penile suspensory ligament. Even after learnt his though I continued to relapse. Even when I wouldn't orgasm I would masturbate prone just to edge, get some precum out, and then wait to calm down and repeat. The problem got worse but because my urologists told me it was fine I took that as an excuse to keep going and now its as bad as its ever been. Been icing it a few times a day which helps but its definitely noticeably different from even just 6-8 months ago.

I relapsed today and decided to join because I know I need to get over this, its basically the main challenge of my life right now. I am a virgin so having these dick problems has been really depressing which kind of feeds into a cycle which leads me back to fapping. Thankfully I am not addicted to porn, for some reason it never really did much for me. I think I have fapped to porn under ten times in my life, I prefer more vanilla visual aids.

 

Thanks but I'm not Christian and I am happy in my religion.

 

You are right. In particular I do like these tips as they are very relevant to me.

Growing up I got so used to fapping right before going to sleep that I have been conditioned to fap to go to sleep. Now its hard to sleep without fapping and if I have insomnia I get really, really tempted to fap.

 

I've already relapsed, feels like shit to start back at square one again after only two days.

Had morning wood and couldn't help myself.

 

This time I actually relapsed because of morning wood. Woke up with a stiffy and thought eh, I'll edge a bit and leave it at that.

Of course that never happens and I ended up orgasming. Twice...

 

Yeah I need to find little things that steer me in the right direction. I hate cold showers but maybe I should try them, I've seen them recommended more than once on here.

 

Unfortunately I have a health issue that stopping me from doing that in the near future but that is definitely part of the long term plan. Helps not only keep my mind off fapping but also gets me tired so when I do go to bed I go to sleep easier which makes avoiding my nighttime fap that much easier.