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Daily check-in, on day 7.

 

Relapse.
Day zero.

 

Neurons will have to be killed
for myself and for anyone who can relate

We talk about urges a lot, but what are behind the urges? A porn mind. A network of neurons built over countless hours of doing porn and fantasizing.
These neurons will have to die. Or for all I care the connections they manifest will have to die.
Naturally, when this happens, they'll be replaced with something better and our life will get better. Indeed, that's something we should motivate ourselves with positively.
But we all know this already and I want to talk about a different thing:
the killing we have to do and the neurons that will be killed.

We can't just erase the porn mind by pushing a button. We can't talk it away, we can't commit it away. We need to kill many many neurons, until the porn mind will just not be a porn mind anymore. It's a bloody business. It's a cold business. To do it we must distance ourself from the porn mind and the thoughts it produces. We mustn't flirt with the porn mind anymore, we mustn't believe that it would somehow be possible to keep or just tame it.

Distance yourself! The thoughts it produces are not you. The feelings it produces are not you. However they're in you and you have to deal with them.
There may be borderline cases where you don't know: which is me and which is the porn mind. Then decide. Your brain was designed so you make decisions: what does (still) belong to you and what doesn't. Don't search for your "true self". Don't ponder about the porn mind. Don't test it, don't try it, don't look for it! If you liberately think it's thoughts, you've got caught in its trap.
Kill it.
Let it die.

 

Phew! Managed to remove another lingering NSFW follow I had on Reddit, without looking at her pics. Still going strong!

 

I feel like if you've gone over 150some days, it's not a fail. Your body and mind is definitly the better for that streak.

 

Alright alright. Enough bullshit. It's real this time. Finishing up day 3.

I think I'm setting my sights too high, and it becomes overwhelming. You can't make it up the flight of stairs in one leap.

This time around, I will make it through the entire month of November.

 

Daily check-in, on day 8!