About to relapse holy fucking shit having a bad time

Use the Panic Button. NOW.

 

When you've calmed down, go to a public space and block all the proxies. Are you using a porn blocker?

 

Don't give in. You want to, but really, you don't want to. That path is the end of the line. Trust me. Been there for a long time and it is a dead-end.

 

You don't need wisdom to beat PMO. You need will.

 

Been in the same position plenty of times.... even at almost 3 months in I do not know whether the urges will ever stop.

It is a strange fucking feeling, I don't really have the urge to look at porn, but the body wants to look at women and have a release.

I have to tell myself this is a trick, and the nature of addiction.... it waits until you are weak and then hits - that is why it is so difficult to give up. The brain wires have gotten fucked up along the way, it has confused what it wants. We were not built to jack off every day, or even every week, we have conditioned ourselves into it.

Live through it and you get experience and knowledge to deal with it better the next time.

 

But I don’t have any friends names Will???

;-)

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In the early days of this struggle I’d get out of the house and just do something. Anything (legal and healthy) that gets me thinking about something else. Sometimes it be get on the metro and head out to the city. Sometimes it be a walk to a scenic spot in the hills. Often times I’d just get out of the house into the car and decide after I backed out of the garage. Just get away from being isolated in the house with your computer.

Another thing I would do ahead of time was research locations that were of interest to me and make concrete plans to go visit. I’d spend time in the following days doing some research and planning for the trip. That would use up time that would have gone to PMO.

Don’t give up!

 

Hope all is well.

 

Keep going. If you’ve relapsed, don’t beat yourself up too much. Brush yourself off and start again