Think of the flatline as if it were a train

yes the flatline is like a train if you think about it. You know it’s coming. When it’s there it feels like it’s taking forever. However do keep in mind that it will eventually pass. Now to be serious I do feel I am entering a flatline as my give a f*** levels are dropping and the things I find pleasurable (outside of pmo) like video games and junk food are now less pleasurable. However I can’t complain for those vices serve no real purpose, but at the same time I feel like I’m fading away or experiencing a ego death or something. I’ve been here before so I know I’m not going crazy it’s just my brain not wanting to change but yeah just wanted to put things into a different perspective. Stay strong brothers. If you have a urge you have a energy so put it to good use!

 

So for me. My first experience of a real flatline and I mean real as in there are with drawls Like agitation and boredom. Ive heard and and experienced it but no I’m talking a real flatline. I feel like the more bad habits you cut out and how fast you cut them out equals the faster and worst you feel during a flatline, and essentially the faster you recover from one. For me I joined the army during my pmo days. And that was hella tough going from pmo and junk food and gaming and sleeping in everyday to no phone at all no junk food at all no McDonald’s NUNYA. When i say that’s the worst I’ve felt I mean it. My brain was in shock. I felt nothing at all, and that was the problem (huge sign of recovering). I was num within a week. I didn’t know who I was. I couldn’t quite ingage in social activity. I felt like a part of me was gone and truth be told a huge part of me was gone, the dopamine filled brainless couch potato was gone. The brain hates change so it fills your head with all this non sense to make you give in. I can go on and on about this. Long story short my flatline came within a week and lasted till I was done with Trianing (2 months) but I kid you not the day I was able to graduate and live a regular life without drill sergeants in my face, the first time I ate some pizza or ice cream, the first time I listened to music after being without any of those stimulates for so long, felt amazing, food tasted better music was more... i can’t explain it just more (brain receptors were increased by far) . When we got our phones I took a selfie and my eyes where so white and sharp. I hadnt realize i had so much energy though we worked out everyday. YOUR BRAIN WILL try to make you feel as if the sky is falling. It will do that only because it doesn’t like change DONT LISTEN TO IT. It’s really just the ego. Sadly I didn’t have this knowledge at the time and after 3 months I used my phone a bit to much a and slowly fell back into the pmo hole. Since than I’ve been on and off. Flatlining knowing you can end it all vs you not being able to do anything about it are two different things. It felt like hell only because I made mediocrity my heaven if you will. Day 90 is when I said I had enough of these thoughts so I decided to start writing down exactly what I felt. I wrote what oven been through where I’m at and where I want to be in life. This is where I started seeing the light as I started gaining self awareness and processing all the backed up thoughts in my head. My thoughts and subconscious mind was so sound That as I wrote I actually cried and released some emotional baggage and it felt great. It was great because it was the first thing I felt i felt in years. That was a year ago. I don’t feel too bad now and I want to get back to where I was so I’m still trying. To grow you must suffer. The flatline doesn’t effect you, it effects your brain. Your you is just the ego talking. Hope I helped anyone whose thinking they are going crazy. Stay strong

 

Yes, definitely the mood swings and physical ups and downs like one day I have a lot of energy and the next I feel so tired and just worn out.