I did it, and I'll do it again!

PORN
I quitted porn a year and three months ago. A wise decision in my opinion. I've never actually been adictive to pornography, although I used to watch it at least once a week. I don't miss it, and I'm glad I don't.

MASTURBATION

Now this is a different story.
I read about NoFap by the time I quitted porn and I wanted to give it a try. I did both. Neither pornography nor masturbation. I reached the day 90 in the first row. I even continued till day a hundred and something. After that, I edged for two weeks. It was my decision. I wanted to practice semen retention and see how it worked.
Before going on with the story, I want to show the benefits I experienced during those 90 days, as well as the difficulties I had to face. The first days were not much of a big deal. Normal routine. Now, after the second or third week I felt overwhelmed as hell. Just like everyone else in this planet, I have personal conflicts, but due to the abstinence (or at least, that's my hypothesis) those problems felt heavier. My mind wandered through dangerous thoughts. I felt gloomy, but I resisted, and the following months were worth the effort. I started reading! I made reading a habit. And during the second half of the year I had been able to finish 5 or 6 books (a huge amount taking into account that I used to read once a year if I was lucky). I even finished books in no more than three days!
Another positive aspect was confidence. The most insecure guy in the world was finally feeling confident ✊ Moreover, I was able to have sex more frequently, something that did not happen during the first half of the year while I was on Fap. I even asked the girl I liked to go out and we ended up dating for three months!!! A huge accomplishment.

But what happened after that? By the end of the year, I had to face a tough situation. I will not give any details, but I will say that, despite acting the best way I could have acted, my levels of confidence lowered. That summer (I'm from Argentina, so summer here starts in December and finishes in March) I experienced both good and bad moments. I started #NoFap again and I reached day 90 once more but it didn't feel like the first time. What is more, I gave up reading.
From March until the time I'm writing this, I 've been able to read a lot again (I finished more then twelve booms) but I masturbated from time to time.
This year has been tough. Not bad, but tough. I 've learned a lot and did plenty of new things, but I felt quite insecure in different ocassions. So, which are my plans for the future? To stop masturbating once more! ✊ Last week I felt anxious, worried and scared almost every day, but the truth is that I'm done with feeling those emotions so constantly I know that life has both ups and downs, but all of us want more ups than downs. That's why we are here. That's why we want to quit porn and masturbation. And that's why I'm writing this story.
Today, I feel good. The very idea of stop touching myself makes me happy. Because I want what's best for me. I want to keep on reading. I want to feel confident again. I want to reach the best version of me. And I know that NoFap will take all of that to the limit, because it has already done it.

My message to anyone reading this is DO NOT give up. You can do it! If I could, then you can. And if I could in the past, then I can in the present. So can you.
For some of you quitting porn may be hard. For others, quitting masturbation will be. For the rest both tasks will be a challenge. We are different people with different backgrounds. What's easy for me will be hard for you, and the other way around. So don't compare yourself with others! Remember that if you fall, you can rise again! I failed a lot despite my accomplishments, but I'm willing to start all over again, and I don't feel bad about it. I feel great.

You are the one who's going to tell the story the next time ✊✊✊