The "who do you want to be" - Challenge

If you don't accept you have it and you don't allow yourself to feel it fully you cannot transform it IMHO. A few solid years in therapy. A caterpillar does not just grow wings, one life dies to create another i.e. a butterfly. You cannot just go on and transform everything u don't like about yourself. First you embrace and love everything about things you don't like about yourself and then you accept, let go and transform. If you sit in depression and then work with it to transform it without accepting and embracing your inner demons you're doomed. Bc they are you. They always were.

 

awesome my friend
me too
I stayed everyday on my plan
with studies,work and even relationship
now week three
I am organised
so it's time to really enjoy my time off
will update you my friend
meanwhile thanks
this challenge is helping me being committed to something "greater" than the simply Nopmo

 

sunday has come and it's time for a new recap:
goal: enjoy more my time off
I confess @Snakeloa that I cheated a bit in choosing the week for this so that this challenge had my birthday in it
but I didn't enjoyed only yesterday
I went to a concert on tuesday
Had fun after the gym with a friend on wednsday
Had a great talk with a friend on thursday

So I proudly say that also this week went really good and I can say I completed the challenge
but new week means new challenge and I needed this since I feel I am losing the grip I had on this
this week I'll be really serious about meditation

P.s: I read about your relapse and I am sorry since you had a great streak but I also read that you're ready to go on again so great it means that you are really a reliable person on this

 

well it's time for my checking in as well
I improved my meditation time and quality but not as I would like to so I decided that I move to the next week but if I will not keep on improving also my meditation in these weeks that will come I will repeat this week
so it's time for next week and the next challenge:
this week it's time to start volunteer

 

hey
quick update it is official about my volunteering that this sunday for my village's children I will be Santa
hope to be good

 

Well sunday recap.
I've been Santa and it has been wonderful.
I joined officialy the blood donation association of volunteer( I was already a blood donor but now I am also in the activity of the team) and I've decided that I want to join the team and also become a leading figure of them(my town is about 20000 people so it will be a great responsibility.
I also proudly say that I've meditating more and more these days
I needed a good momentum because now the problem is here
the most importan week
my greatest weekness
this week I will work on my relationship. I've been good because it has been always about me doing things now I've to know how to really deal with others
it will be tough but it could also be the best week of my life

 

well it is going well but it hurts a lot.
but a bad truth is better than a beatiful lie

 

Well the challenge this week is be realistic about relationship.
to understand you need a bit of my background. I am 24 and I always had some problem with anxiety and my introversion, because of these I used P to fly away from my problem in a world where everything was under my control and so on. So in my relationship, especially with girls, I've never been good in understanding them and most important how they see me so only now I am able to recognize that most of them wasn't good relationship for me and that they made me believe things that wasn't real and neither possible. Now I am reflecting on all the relationship that have this problem, and it hurts to discover it.

 

sunday check.
It went well. Not in the direction that I dreamed of but as already said the main goal was to be realistic. And that's it. I reflected and discussed with the interested people and now I've seen well all the truth. Unpleasant but at least the truth.
Now I know and I can act knowing at least. Sorry if I am so short but as I said sometimes truth hurts.

anyway new week:
Improve relationship with family on which I am working from at least 1 year but this time I want to take more action.