Shy, but "not shy"

Hi!

Was wondering if someone are going trough some of the same problem/or have gone trough it before. So I am currently in a class with a lot of great people, who are really supportive and nice to eachother, with an open mind that everyone should be happy.

Still, I really struggel to talk in groups that are bigger then 5 people or more. It is okey to talk one to one, or in smaller groups with every singel on of them - but all the sudden when the number have changed, and the bigger it gets, I get some shy version of me. I don't really feel scared, but my voice changes, without me really feeling nervous. It gets lower with and different, not really weird, but it sounds like I am more nervouse then I am. I don't really understand why my voice can't be normal, if I am not scared of anything, or that I start to mix the words when the group get bigger.

Is there anyone that have gone trough the same?

Normally when having a presentation infront of the whole class, I use to write my thougths down. I start with "What is the worst that can happen", and I see that there is not really any good reasons to be scared. But when having a presentation I have practiced a lot what I am going to say before too. So in just a normal class situation, where I want to raise my hand, to answer a question, I really struggel.

 

Yeah, I am pretty sure it is, even tho I don't know what exact point it changed. I am pretty sure it happened when I was very young maybe in the age of 10-14. That is when it started I think. But I at the same time, when I think back, it does not affect me today, but I guess it just have become a "normal" to me. So want to try change that

Yeah, sometimes I can be very open, if it is a group of friends. Does not really matter how big the group is, as long as the group is close. At the same time, at school, I don't feel that I should be nervouse for any reason since my class is really nice and supportive to eachother. So I try to force myself to talk more, just hate that my voice gets "nervouse" even tho I feel very normal.