Lack of sexual identity!!

Yes. Your brain has rewired itself to seek pleasure from real people not digital person! Congrats

 

Go have some sex with girls bang them!lol! Don't masturbate or watch porn that's it don't seek orgasm from digital or imagination...

 

The emptiness of recovery... absolutely hate it. You feel like you've lost something and there's nothing to go in that place. It might also be the flatline because you're round about that time. Read up on it. Notice that the flatline though not pleasant is also your friend as it helps you to abstain. Would you rather be getting strong cravings 5 times a day?

It's always said that recovery needs to go with implementing healthy habits. Working out and meditation are number one. Have you tried either? It looks like you might need something to look forward to during the day.

 

Im wrestling with this issue to. I feel empty too. What now? Lay down in bed never to rize?
I think/hope that as we heal we can get more and more dopamine from going fishing, interacting with girl (and the dopamine comes from the talk), engaging in hobbies, walks in nature... Remember, as a kid, going to that big toy store? Major dopamine rush!
We probably never will be able to reach that extreme dopamine rush high speed interent porn can give us but that is what we are trying to quit. Think life is to be filled with many small rushes.
I try to remember who I realy am, who was that kid in the beginning. What did he like? What could I like? And do those things and hope thoes will become more rewarding down the road.

 

You don't NEED sexual pleasure, don't worry about it. Also, I've heard it takes about a year or two to fully reboot, so be careful with the pleasure seeking.

 

Hey buddy, so I’m pretty new, this is essentially day 1 of my reboot.. obviously your post was quite a while ago now, have you found your ED has improved with the steps you took? I’ve been looking at porn most of my life and find it difficult to maintain in real intercourse, definitely in need of a rewrite..

 

Ahhh man I’m sorry, I guess we’re all on a learning curve here and It must be a small consolation that you’ve relapsed with fantasies and not porn. On the spectrum of relapses that must be the healthier of the two..