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Fapped my feelings away

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Deleted Account, Nov 20, 2019.

  1. I’m literally banging my head against the wall right now.

    There is this girl I have a class with, and she’s super hot. I caught feelings for her when we were assigned a project together, and I could tell she was into me too. Thinking of this girl gave me butterflies, and I wanted to take her out to movies and cuddle with her and shit like that.

    I just so happened to PMO 3 times today, yeah I know, I fucked up. There’s a certain trigger I am working on, and that is my non porn induced HOCD, which means I don’t have HOCD because I am addicted to gay porn or anything like that.

    Just 4 hours ago, I was thinking about this girl coming to one of my b-ball games, and it gave me butterflies. Then I fapped a 3rd tone and that fire I get for her is gone.

    I had finally made a move yesterday, and we are going to hang out at the mall this Saturday and I was so nervous and excited, but now I feel emotionless.

    I am afraid I have lost feelings for her, I don’t want to lose feelings for her, when I think about the movies and cuddling and stuff I don’t get those butterflies anymore. Just 4 hours ago I did and now I can’t? I’m so mad at myself, this girl was such a good catch but did I just fuck it up.

    Yeah I can still go on the date, but am I gonna force myself to date her now, like I want the feelings to be there.

    My HOCD crushes me, but this, this is ripping me to shreds. I am disappointed in myself, in the matter of one fap, I lost my feelings. I did this to myself.

    I will be seeing her again in class tomorrow, so hopefully from seeing her I will get the feelings back? Or maybe now I’m trying to hard to get those butterflies so they aren’t coming naturally?

    What do I do? ):
     
  2. mana95

    mana95 Fapstronaut

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    Forget about hocd. Think 3 times pmo sessions are ok than 6 times. If you like that girl and you and her meet very often also she is interested in you. Just stay positive and talk with her.
     
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  3. Overforme

    Overforme Fapstronaut

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    If you have a porn problem a relationship wont fix it. You're going to bring the porn problem into the relationship and its going to mess up everything. I reccomend you get yourself clean for 90 days and then think about a relationship when you've gained control. Many others thought a relationship would fix the issue but it hasnt.
     
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  4. tntrf

    tntrf New Fapstronaut

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    Go and enjoy that date, that will be the right thing, don't give it to much mind, that's our problem obsessive-compulsive behavior. Don't let the sickness controls you once again in a different way. Bless you
     
  5. glasgow

    glasgow Fapstronaut

    That feeling when you "fall in love" and butterflies in yout stomach with someone is simply physical attraction. If you do not feel it right now doesn't mean that you should forget or discard that girl. You know that.

    Go on that date with her, talk to her, learn about her from her own words. Love is something that will grow on you with time, those feelings of attraction you had are temporary, they never last forever, you need to learn to understand them.

    Maybe... just maybe you discover that she is not for you, but you don't know that, you have to give "you and her" a chance, to be friends first, and maybe something more later. Remember that you are addicted to PMO because it saves you all these "trouble", but that's false, it deprives you from the real experiences and social skills you develop as a normal human being.

    Go on that date champ! Enjoy the day with her, forget about your "attraction" and think about her as a person.
     
    Last edited: Nov 20, 2019
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  6. ANewFocus

    ANewFocus Fapstronaut

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    My college years could be defined by girl showing interest in me, fapping to avoid uncomfortable emotions about risk, rejection, and intimacy, and then having no interest in her by the time we went out.

    15 years later I’m happily married. I still have regrets and remorse about the times I led women on in this way and the failed connections.

    Don’t be me.
     
  7. w8 up mate, I m kinda confused about ur hocd, could u give me more details about it?
     
  8. That’s why they call it post nut clarity. You have dulled yourself out, and nullified your sex drive. That drive you felt is meant to push you to women, but instead when you use it to pmo, it’s like you extinguish all your drive not just for women but for life, and you are left empty.

    Now she won’t be as attracted to you come saturday. you won’t bring that oomph and masculinity and confidence

    It’s a bad idea to relapse right before a date if you’re wanting to have good chemistry
     
  9. Max55555m2

    Max55555m2 Fapstronaut

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    Don't watch faggot porn it's gonna ruin your life you will become fag yourself
     
  10. he cannot become a fag, but u had better not watch if u are straight!
     

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