I only feel like a man at 100mph

https://imgur.com/a/Lz7Xgzz

Otherwise I feel like a sissy faggot.

I have intense cravings to go full transgendered person and start dressing and presenting as a female.

I wanted to go to the sex toy store tonight and buy a dildo to give myself a "prostate orgasm" (sissygasm) with. I'm not even sure if they're biologically possible (hands free ass fucking orgasm) but it's my excuse to keep trying. I've used and thrown out many toys so far.

I decided to head out to the sticks instead and blow off some steam.

It's dangerous (and I have 2 court cases pending, 1 for 100mph the other for 45 in a 25).

I'm smarter now if you can call it that, in that they are more lenient out here compared to the city and the tickets are easier to reduce/get out of and it's a lot easier to have enough road to really take off. My first time coming out here for this.

It wasn't enough though, as soon as I got home I relapsed to a nigger fucking a faggot in a dress and then a chink getting fucked by her bf anally (of course I imagined I was the chink).

I can only cope knowing women are awful drivers and would be too scared to handle these speeds. That's how I know I'm not meant to be a transgendered person.

I was thinking how convenient it would be if I had a tire blowout or something, then there's no more transgendered person urges if I'm dead.

I nearly got into a side swipe making that video (don't have any mount or stand for my phone so had to hold it) on a wide open road.

I find it's the only masculiny I have left.