Depression from sex

Would you ever consider a dating a transgender woman? It seems your attraction is genuine. And not from porn escalation.
I guess you need to ask yourself...... what exactly is sexually attracting you to the Trans........ and go from there in trying to find your sexual authenticity.

 

Just remember that TS doesn't exist in nature, although occasionally hermaphrodite/intersex does. Other than that, it's hormones and surgery, which is fine I guess.
In porn, it seems like a way to see penis without people that look like men attached.
Give the 30/90 a go.

 

Yeah kids should not see any porn. Shame to hear that.
You're doing ok.

 

Dude there's no women with Dicks, Its Men with breast Implants.

 

(bit of a longer post)

I had a similar issue that I posted about and also found myself in a depressive state. I will say for me it definitely was a form of escalation as I basically went through every female category as far as body types in the book old,bbw,milf...etc before I found transwoman. In my case I find it gross in any normal state of mind but when I was doing cocaine I would binge it because for some reason coke just made me super perverse in my thinking and out of character. I acted out a couple of times only oral sex and mostly because I couldn't find a female escort as easily. I was crushingly depressed and lost a lot of respect for myself at first but as that was about 4 years ago I managed to overcome most of the guilt for a while. Recently the guilt and depression has hit me again and I feel like a fraud that I engaged in that activity like I have this horrible shame Im carrying. Sometimes i fear of it coming out if I ever become a public figure and it makes me sick because I know that's not who I am. Sometimes Ill become so obsessed with finding an excuse for it I'll go through message boards or search things reassuring only heterosexual men would mess with a transexual since they portray feminine qualities. Honestly if you are gay or bi or just really attracted to trans women I would say go forth with no shame because that is who you are but I believe in most cases its just a side effect of porn as it was in my case(shambles not sexual orientation). I garuntee if I did cocaine again and allowed myself to fall into the same way of thinking I could very likely involve my self in situations like that again because it has already happened more than once. I think reengaging in those things is a mix of addictive traits and self-hate/hopelessness. If porn and acting out brings you great depression and regret it is obviously not something you should seek out again. I feel its the same thing as being a junkie for heroine it hurts your life but the momentary dopamine rush is appealing especially if you are depressed. My advice is to realize you are a man who made a mistake and became addicted to a very harmful drug. You can't change the past but you absolutely don't have to be defined by it I know its a struggle as I struggle accepting it even to this day but I have hope for you and I that we will get over it if we stay away from that mess.

best wishes