Everyday I feel I am in danger

Maybe you should report him to the police.

 

Get a concealed carry permit.

 

Then maybe reporting him to the police might not work. I assumed you lived in America.

 

Someone admits to being paranoid and you tell them to get a firearm. I'm pro CCP but this is just ridiculous.

 

The way I read it, dude said a bully was after him trying to stab him.
Paranoid or fact, OP?

 

4 years ago or recently?

 

I relate to this. I am a feeble person, the wind can pick me up. While growing up I was picked on because of this, a lot, so now as an adult I feel threatened by everyone. Due to this I have an inferiority complex, and due to this I want to be able to beat people up. I fantasize more about beating people up than about sexual stuff, it feels really good, but in reality I am not able to harm anyone I want to harm. Even in my dreams, my punches are like throwing pillows.

 

Why don't you go to the police? Where do you live? Somaliland?

 

Possibly bc he believes that he shouldnt run to others for his problems and that he should handle his own business like a man

 

That's ridiculous. That other guy is clearly mentally deranged and dangerous for OP and others. We're not in a Western movie. There's nothing to man up about here.

 

he is probably in prison by now

 

Ridiculous? To be frank, i think it's ridiculous to run to the police for your problems when they get dangerous. What kind of a legacy are you leaving?

I don't think it's ridiculous at all to man up and handle situations on your own. I literally dont understand, its so incredibly simple

 

@Optimum Fortitude how wild would it be if @Iron Will reported this to the police. They would laugh on his face.

He would say that theres this guy that made a threat 4 to 5 years ago, once. Its ridiculous, this man is in no danger

 

Don't ever become a police officer.

 

as you said yourself, it is an obsession. It's not healthy imho. The only question is, are you mostly worried about that one asshole you're mentioning or is it rather a general mindset of yours?

Have you ever done Martial Arts? Cause this sounds like a case where someone could need some Martial Arts training. Not because you need to beat people up, but to gain strength, confidence, the ability to realistically assess a self-defense situation and the release of aggression.

Also you should think of other approaches than only counter-violence. There are many forms to fight back, defend against or avoid physically violence. For example, to get help.

Although it's understandable, worrying isn't helping you at all. What happened to you in 2015 was certainly traumatizing. But it may be the best now to process it and get over it. Running was a good choice by the way. We can't always be heros.
Well, one way or the other, sooner or later you will get over this my friend

 

I like the fact that Most people here didn't recognice that this dude said that he want to become a bully himself because of mental problem he had in 2015 because of another bully, i usualy love revenge and being in a position of strength but in the case of the op i would just say that he needs to see a doctor, this is not a joke either.