Clean Journey!

NoFap has many benefits, and it has revolutionized my life. I was addicted to porn for almost 15 years. I got exposed to porn when I was 15 years old. Since then, I was addictive to watching it daily. I came to the USA at the age of 15. I am 32 years old, and I feel that I had a lot of opportunities that I lost growing up because of the culprit porn. I was never able to get rid of my accent due to investing so much time in porn. I wish I was more active in my teens so I could have finished my bachelor's at the right age, and I would have accomplished a lot of things. I recently completed my bachelor's. I came to know about NoFap two years ago. Reading other people's stories and knowing the symptoms of porn, I could so relate to them. I have been anxious, depress, anti-social from girls, and have always seen them as an object.

After realizing how porn and masturbation can change your brain chemistry and perspective, I decided to overcome my addiction. I could have never thought that porn is so detrimental to the over health, I only wanted to stop porn because I knew it is morally wrong. After finding the physiological symptoms of it, I was that all the problems which I have encountered in my life are due to porn. My marriage failed with my wife because I was more interested in porn than her. I regret my addiction and misses her a lot. She never knew that I was addicted to porn, but she did find porn one time on my computer, and I had to make up a story. She knew that I was horny all the time, and she would take advantage of my horniness. I would watch porn mostly but only masturbate once a week. Watching porn would make me horny in a desperate way with my wife. I did have a premature ejaculation issue that would not satisfy my wife. I never knew that all my problems were related to my porn addiction.

Porn had made me numb in my brain that I was not able to connect with people emotionally. I was living in the perception that I am so caring, but in reality, it was all deception to my self. Porn can make you a person who is not you, and it starts to control your life. It can become so hard to genuinely connect with any woman without looking for any sexual favor. After being on Nofap, I had multiple relapses within two years. Still, I have been tracking my Nofap habit for two years, and my accomplishment has been 80% my relapse has been 20%. I have been trying to improve, but in today's society, sexual temptations are a lot due to industry earning money through sexual advertisements.

Nofap cannot solve all your problems, but it gives you the tools to overcome the obstacle which seemed impossible before. Being on Nofap, I have become more social with men and women. I do not see women as objects but have a genuine conversation with them to get to know them. I have started investing time in myself, which has made me a new person. I have not seen my ex-wife for three years; if she saw me today, she would be shocked knowing how many things I have accomplished by myself. I have done solo camping, sky diving, learned how to swim, bicycling, public speaking, and being healthy. People have told me that they think that I look 25 years old, and I have started to believe that. I am on a journey to become a better version of myself and be productive in my life. My self-esteem and confidence seem to be improving. I have been told many times during my work that I am a social person. Three years back, I was a quiet, anxious guy with so many insecurities and no future ahead. I have been reading a lot of self-improvement books with a lot of motivational speeches and Ted Talk. Now having so much time on my plate, I can do so many other things. Before, I would waste my time watching porn all day with a sedentary lifestyle.

 

Welldone man,Great post!

 

Yes, during the reboot, you will experience specific symptoms as your body is trying to get normal and seeking short term pleasure through Porn. Get irritability is a very common symptom, but trust me, the journey is so much better once you are on Nofap. I have started investing in genuine relationships. I just came today from seeing a female school friend who made special food just for us and drove one hour so we can eat together.