[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

F#ck sake, back to day 1 again

 

2/90

 

Shit, I relapsed. A lot of stress at work. Let's do 3 days straight. 0/3

 

Checking in for day 28

 

Ok, I have been in a bit of a black hole. Looks like I need to start again and build. Off to the 3 day challenge to try and get a foot hold. Good luck everyone. I will be back!

 

Day 1 for me. Got up early this morning, went to the gym, took a cold shower, did a bunch of writing, took an exam, and made dinner. Feeling powerful.

 

completed day6 feels good no erection im the morning

 

Relapsed on Day 26. Normally, I wouldn't PMO when I have a lot of work to do, but I guess the stress out to me and I needed a quick release. Nevertheless, it's a new record for me. I decided to delete my 'collection' officially so I will definitely be able to reach 30 days next!

 

Day 1
Day 2 done.
Have been able to control urges.One day at a time.Thank you God

 

Day 48 of no PMO

 

Good stuff! It is encouraging to hear your story and where you are at on your journey. I hope you get where you want to be soon.

 

Day 46: Was a real struggle today. Almost clicked on some stuff I should not on Reddit but closed it in time. Going to have to make sure I stick to my boundaries with screens when I know I am at my weakest. Onwards and upwards and restored.

 

Day 22/90

 

Thanks for this video as it got me thinking so I posted about my 5 top regrets today on this forum as it is a good exercise for keeping the temporal nature of life in perspective.

 

Forgot to post yesterday so this is for Tues and Wed.

Current Challenge 14/90 (ends Feb 25)
29/320 Good Days (no relapse)
Day 104 weight training (M, W, F)
Day 39 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar
Longest streaks 67 then 51 (4 years later)

Someone posted a great video yesterday on the 90 Day Challenge about regrets one might have if they knew they would die soon with some terminal illness. The guy in the video was joking he was the ghost of Christmas past and helping fellow fapstronauts change their ways before it was too late. Would I still be PMO'ing if I knew the end was near? I don't think so. I thought about what I would regret and want to change before it was too late and below is what I came up with in no particular order:

1) I regret the huge amount of time that I have wasted in my life viewing porn and PMO'ing my health and vitality away for 43 years ... since I figured out how my junk works. I can't get that time back and so it is lost years.
2) I regret it took me so long to get over my ex-fiance which didn't allow me to love my wife properly for the past 27 years. I am getting better at loving her the farther I get from a PMO lifestyle though. This too is lost time which I can't get back but I can make our future better
3) I regret that I didn't take the high road with my brother and resolve our 16 year estrangement. He has way too much pride to ever resolve this issue so I should do it for him. It's not too late to reverse this one.
4) I regret that I lived a life which was inferior to my potential. I blame my weakness with PMO for a lot of my inferior feelings, inadequacy and social anxiety but my self image was sealed by my family and school life too. I was way too much of a people pleaser to the point that I didn't live a life that was true to myself. These are lost years but the future can be better if I stay the noPMO route and build confidence.
6) I regret that I didn't choose a career that I loved. Instead I chose a conservative stable with good income and benefits type of profession. I like to think I helped a lot of people in my work who were like me. A mixed blessing with some lost years but at least I got to retire early and can now do as I please.
7) I regret that I didn't have the courage to express my feelings towards the many girls I liked and was attracted to in my teens and adult life. Many romances and potential soul mates were lost because I feared rejection too much to ever approach them. Too late to fix this one so the best I can do is to make the marriage I am in the best it can be by not escaping into the fantasy world of porn.

Your brother in this struggle!

 

70/90!

 

Awesome! Keep going!

 

Day 55
Vivid Dreams. Feeling good. Praying pslams to keep my heart focused, it helps. Have to make this a habit.

 

4 wednesday
5/90 thursday

 

Yesterday I reached day 34/90. Was really hard, urges nearly pushed me to reset. But I decided to go to bed early without doing anything else and hat saved me.