I was desperate

first stop comparing yourself with your friend the only person you should compare yourself is with the person you were yesterday. Your friend must have problem that you don't know i mean everybody has problem this is life. But you only need to focus on yourself and when you stop thinking about other people and start think about yourself and try to become a better version of yourself than the person you were yesterday it all become a little easy. Let me tell you this path is not going to be easy, baby steps one step at time there will be time when you think that this is not working but still you need to keep going keep giving your 100% and even if you get 60-80% result that should be enough for you. Life is the name of constant change staying on one point is boring. Just keep swimming

 

Some people jsut have a headstart, thats not a good reason not to try.

 

The only one you should bother about and compare yourself to is your own self. "Am I ahead of my former self, standing still or actually moving forward compared to my former self?". These are the only legit questions you should ask yourself whenever you think about self-improvement and improving yourself.