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Well, today I've made it to the big enchilada - 90 days. I'm not gonna try to motivate anyone - you gotta make your own success stories. But here's a little bit of what I went through.

At age 11 or 12 I discovered the thing. Thought "ok, I guess I'll be doing this now - I guess this is just what people do." But I had a lot of free time, and a lot of stress, and very few things to take my mind off of shit. You combine those three, and you get a recipe for a shitstorm. Now at age 21 - let's call it a decade - I finally had the balls to be honest with myself. All the horrible shit I watched, knowing it was horrible, but still doing it because "muh dick feel good tho." Wanna know all the twisted shit I got into?

Spoiler: Bunch of fucking fetishes

VORE -

Spoiler: for real, this is some horror movie shit

giant women swallowing little people and digesting them and then burping, farting, etc. Sometimes even involves shitting. It's the darkest and most sadistic fetish I've ever seen, and I will never recover from it. Add CGI and life-like graphics and you're basically fucked in the head for life.

What's worse is that there are LITERALLY TENS OF THOUSANDS OF VIDEOS OF THIS FETISH. IT'S STUPIDLY POPULAR.

transgendered people - most of you guys can relate. Giant 8" dick transgendered people fucking other men, getting sucked off by men. I wanted to be the guy getting fucked and dominated even though I'm straight. There are literally hundreds of times that I have jerked off to the idea of riding some transgendered person's cock or giving her a fucking bj.

Actually that's it. Mostly those two.

You're never going to have a 3d hentai futa giantess foot goddess video game cosplay bouncy anime titties-having IRL sex doll with a free-floating perfect sphere ass. So why act like you have all that when you sit down for a session? Porn is just a pretend world. And jerking off 3-5 times a day like I did is way too much - come at me media, come at me Billie Eilish. Come at me "DOCTOR" Nicole. Come at me sex-positive neo-liberal degenerates. Come at me Buzzfeed, tumblr, Instagram, social media. You guys think that porn and masturbation are "healthy"? Let me introduce you to 2,000 people who thought the same thing and had their entire lives go to shit. Here, I'll finish your sentence "PMO is healthy - in moderation." And just because you can do it doesn't mean you should. Would you invite an alcoholic to a keg party and tell him to only have a few drinks?

And all you addicts who are reading this: if you think you can just "maybe not do it as much, but still do it a little" you're gonna have a hard fucking time. I'll tell you how I did it. I stopped cold turkey and never looked back. If I got an urge, I didn't fucking drool over it and sit there with cum in my brain. The thoughts will get you, so you just don't let them in. When you start having the thoughts, you start changing the rules for yourself - and as soon as you start changing the rule, you lose. So swat that shit away and don't mess up. You gotta militarize your routine - it's not fun but it's good for you.

Now, here's a list of all the things I accomplished since starting NoFap, NoVidya, and NoSurf.

Started Studying
Started getting in touch with my friends, finding new friends
Started training hard - massive gains in only a couple months
Started seeing people as people
Started seeing myself as a person
Started caring more, about other people and myself, and about life in general
Started having emotion again
Started to be less awkward - I feel comfortable talking to people now
Started being less scared of the world, wanting to do more things
Started journaling and making lists of goals
Started to learn Portuguese
Started to read and actually enjoyed it
Started eating healthy
Stopped talking to women because I only wanted them for sex
Started wanting relationships
And now I have a date with an actual fucking girl in two days - a real human female


Here's one more thing. If you're a lazy piece of shit and a cumbrain like I was, don't just stop fapping. Stop fapping AND stop being a lazy piece of shit. There is no magic formula. You have to start being a human again. Get animated. Merry Christmas.

 

Just wanted to update to say that a couple days ago, I did sadly relapse with MO. Single time, and no porn was involved. Going to hit 90 again this time for the second time in a row. Thankfully, I have gained so much experience through my first trial that I will be even stronger this time around.