october to december 2019 - Quarter for God

Hi,

after the month for God September, in which I watched 3 times porn, but I did not touch myself and a bad failure today, I want to start the quarter for God, from now until the end of this year. Who wants to join me? I will do this time better, no porn at all and no failure after the period.

After the month for God I see, I can manage to reach this aim! Just join - I have noticed, fighting together is so much easier und so much more successful!!!

 

Day 7, no real urge so far. But I have to stay alerted, being prudent, stay strong. So I will make an update in maybe a week.

 

Day 9, sexual desire is increased perceptibly. But I want to know what the body feeling after three month is and then persist to a very longer period to know the strange body-feelings of abstinence. It will be very, very hard, but I have got to pass through and to get through! This is so important for me, because it is the way out of the addiction and the way out of a strange, burdenend, kind of handicaped life. I want to get the feeling of beeing free of addiction!!! Let's go!

 

Day 12, still easy, no real urge so far, sexual desire stays equal, slightly increased. I have to be very prudent, some small temptations well managed, waiting for the strong urge, coming maybe in one or two weaks, earlier or later. I am prepared.

 

Some bad TV-movie (such kind of art-scandal) movie got me in a difficult situation, but my accountability partner saved me! So I can continue, knowing the help I got here from nofap and the community! Thanks to this site and thanks to you!

 

I failed, this zero hurts really bad - I was totally a mess this night until now, completly off. I managed the urges last night and then the day after, but this night, the following night, I lost my mind: It was not only relapsing, it was a almost complet selfdestruction by trying to make the urge easier by watching bad stuff - I knew that this does not work. I am more down than after the relapse before. I tried to get through in an easy way, without a good fight and lost so much . So, I am at zero again, not only the day counter is at zero, it is my fight, my strategie, my plan.

But I will continue this fight.In the end, I will win. No more failure until the end of this year. Thanks God I fixed the rules some days before I relapsed so I can stay in my Quarter.

 

Sure, l let's do this!!!!

 

We can do it here or write an email to me.

 

Merry Christmas to Everyone!