Its difficult to recover as a virgin

When you are a virgin, pmo is the only way to express your sexualiy. However, because you do it without a receiver, it ends up becoming a perversion and rly addicitng since no amount of fapping is ever enough.

You fap, cumming makes your dompamine, you fap again to feel good and the cycle is hard to break.

And after more than a year of nofap, i still think about porn every day. I have never seen a naked woman irl not that it would be any good without fucking her so porn is the only way to see some tits and vag.

The point is that your supress your urges and they culminate and create a sex hungry personality that all it wasnt to do is jerk off till death. And without sex you cannot unleash this other side of you and merge it with your true self so it just remains internally supressed in you.

Sometimes, i have physical pain from fighting this other me off. its an endless battle, with small yet so essential gains. Im a 24 yo virgin so i guess ill suffer forever.

 

This should be actually easy man. Think like this, as long you fucking up with PMO you'll never see boobs and girls naked irl. That should be your motivation, aside becoming a better version of yourself. Don't surpress your urges, accept them and fight them.

 

not at all tbh. i just use the term because its recognizable.

 

my motivation is that if i do this along with my slef improvment i can be asexual