Getting severly depressed, therefore I will "cheat"

Congratulations on getting this far! I have the same amount of days as you and have been feeling that same pressure that I want to release. I don't believe taking medication is cheating if you are taking them as prescribed.

One thing that has helped me, is staying positive and shutting down any negativity around me. We can beat ourselves up and create pitty parties for ourselves and then we relapse back into the cycle because we don't know how to cope with that negativity.

When I feel down and out and I want to PMO I try to find something that I'm grateful for and how it will be enriched if I continue to stay away from PMO.

Stay strong, you can do this! Look at all you have in a positive way.

Good luck studying... You'll get on a roll with it in time. Don't beat yourself up... Enjoy

 

I have a history of depression and anxiety too. It seems to be a cycle: I get depressed so I turn to PMO then that makes me more depressed. Repeat cycle over and over. I've also tried antidepressants in the past. Often they'd give me sexual side effects that interfered with my PMO so I'd quit the meds. I think I need to go back on the meds since they can probably help me overcome some of the issues that lead to my PMO habits. I just have to be willing to part with PMO and there's resistance from some parts of me. This is hard but I think it will be worth it.

 

Hi @newlife095 , welcome to NoFap:

It is a big step if you can understand what is triggering your urges, because this will allow you to be awake and kill those urges as soon as they appear.

I recommend you to create your own "Emergency Toolbox" with readings that can be handy to read when you start feeling urges to screw up.
I can share this post with you with my own Emergency Toolbox, it helped me a lot during the first few months, i had them in my cell and read them every time I started falling down:

https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...y-first-320-days-of-reboot.62938/#post-473978

I wrote some tips in this post that perhaps will help you too:

http://NoFap.com/forum/index.php?threads/tips-that-helped-me-to-start-my-reboot.46617/#post-330318
You can watch some interesting videos which are also very helpful in this post:
http://nofap.com/forum/index.php?th...t-help-me-a-lot-during-my-reboot.39774/page-2

I also suggest you to read "Breaking the Cycle" by George Collins, it is a must-read if you are serious about getting rid of this addiction.

To get more focus and feel happier with life I recommend you to start doing meditation.. I have been using an App called Headspace for the last two months which is great if you have never meditated before. The first 10 sessions are free if you want to give a try. I used to feel a bit depressed or feeling without energy to start new projects in my life, and meditation has helped me a lot with this.

Last but not least, I would strongly recommend you to take new e-course that Mark Queppet launched in his new website, called: " REFORGED MAN: Quit porn and Master Yourself-Be a Man you Admire", it is the updated version of the e-course he used to have in NoFap Academy. It is not cheap ($200) but it is totally worth it because he gives great toold to fight PMO.You can find it here:
https://courses.universalman.com/courses/reforged-man
You can also join his website called Patreon, where he posts great stuff for free every week, and also you can join the pay area to be part of his weekly video calls where you can chat with them in real life, get coaching and listen to other guys's stories and problems too. You can find it here:
https://www.patreon.com/home

I hope that all this helps you to fight this shitty addiction.
Let's keep on fighting

Fercho

 

Welcome to the nofap community buddy. This is a temporary slump for you and you will get through this. We will help you.