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purpose beats addiction

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by mutu, Jan 5, 2020.

  1. mutu

    mutu Fapstronaut

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    Hi,

    So in these couple of paragraph I'm seeking your advice and providing you with mine too.

    Keep reading.

    After one and a half year of starting this journey of beating PMO addiction. I have come to realize that having realistic & achievable goals is the only factor that will STOP your addiction and of course having a purpose in life. Because no matter how long you abstain from PMO, if you have no motivation and goals you will end up consuming porn again and you will end up PMOing again and that what happened to me.

    My situation now is that I lost motivation completely and even goals that I really wanted to achieve, either I've achieved some of em or they are no longer important to me. I'm like "OK, If I overcame PMO and achieved goals then what's next!"

    What I'm saying only few will be able to feel it because it's more of a feeling than a few words to describe it.

    So losing this motivation and desire to achieve goals has taken me down. And The biggest problem is that I have a different perspective on life. I'm like "Alright, Im gonna die anyways, so why bother doing what I'm doing even if it's great!"

    I'm still trying to push myself. But my energy this time is uncharagable because if this perspective thing that happened and changed my ideology. BTW I work everyday, but my perspective has dramatically changed. I'm working because I HAVE TO live this life. If I had an option of not being created I would unhesitantly select it!

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  2. Overforme

    Overforme Fapstronaut

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    Deep. I completely understand you. This is what I've been thinking all along. We are all trying to change but many will fail because they do not change anything at all! Words arent enough. Action speaks volumes. If you dont have goals, why bother changing. It's called being complacent. Theres a times when you have to get uncomfortable and decide that things have to change. Clean your place, eat better, excercise, groom better, dress better, ACT BETTER. Nothing is going to make you better if you sit around and stay the same. Hard work pays off. Now you say you would have chosen not to be here... why? Write down why you're depressed and go from there. MAKE THE CHANGES RIGHT NOW TO BE BETTER.
     
  3. mutu

    mutu Fapstronaut

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    Exactly...

    The reason being depressed is because in the past I used to think that life is awesome,fun, wonderful, but now I'm kinda more experienced and know that life is not good, it's full of pain. Even close family members tried to convince me lately that life is beautiful, but they could not because "Life is painful is now a fact for me, I can see that just like seeing the sun every morning". sometimes the truth hurts but we gotta find out the truth anyways!

    I was also questioning for what do we keep fighting in our life? Is it really worth it!

    Sometimes I feel that I have gone too deep into things I will never get an answer to! things such as why do we even exist! and why should we suffer in this life!

    Stepping back would be better, but if I do then I'm again deceiving myself because I would not get the answer to all of these questions!

    All of this is happening to me because of addiction!
     

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