Started PMing for 10 minutes, wasn't enjoying it so stopped.

I'm not feeling well and I felt this huge urge to go on porn. So I went on porn and started masturbating to it flicking about different content for 10 minutes while masturbating. But the extremely strange thing is I wasn't getting turned on at all. I just wasn't enjoying it at all.

So I ended up just saying no point in relapsing if I am getting no enjoyment out this what so ever. So I just closed it and went off it.

Some of you guys might say I relapsed. But I'm not resetting my counter. I honestly feel like no damage was done. I honestly felt nothing jacking off to that porn for 10 minutes. I wasn't turned on at all.

It's quite strange, but yeah that's what happened.

 

I definitely don't feel like I get what I used to from it.

It's a bit crazy for me to say this, but in a way I actually kind of miss feeling that level of pleasure.

 

I think how much excitement, pleasure and enjoyment your getting is an indicator how much damage your doing. When I used to relapse it literally used to feel like ecstasy to me. Now I seem to hardly feel anything.

The strange thing is I miss that level of pleasure. I just hope I can get it in a healthy way elsewhere. Or maybe that level of pleasure was never natural in the first place?

 

Aw yeah I get what you mean. Naturally the best thing you can do is not activate the porn pathways in your brain at all.

But I think you need to put it in to perspective. Naturally some things are going to cause much more damage than other things. For instance think about a scenario like this, lets say a guy who was a heavy PMO user for years went an entire month where he didn't masturbate to porn or artificial sexual stimulation once, but he did masturbate fantasising a handful of times for a few minutes each time in that month. Yes this guy has still activated the porn pathways in his brain, but this guy is still going to see huge progress from this.

That's just one example. I think it comes back to the perfectionism thing. Yes you should aim for perfectionism, but don't be surprised if you don't get perfectionism, and don't think your not making any progress if you don't get perfectionism.

The more your not activating those porn pathways in your brain the more progress your making. The less time you spend activating those porn pathways in your brain the more progress your making.

For instance of course your much better not looking at porn at all, your much better not fantasising at all. But your still much better peaking at porn for 5 minutes and then fantasising later for 5 minutes than what you are having a PMO session that lasts an hour. Naturally you aim not to do any of these. But like I said you don't need to be perfect to be making progress.

Your even making progress from using something less.