why has my ocd gotten worse over reboot?

Big time dude. I was so obsessed with self-improvement and not focusing on my past porn-addiction that I relapsed today after 15 days. I wish there was a personal answer or instruction manual telling us what we're doing right and wrong and what to expect during this journey. It's so fxckin annoying but keep going--all I feel is that I released tension but anxiety is still the same maybe a little worse, it ain't worth relapsing. I feel your pain though I have intense OCD right now on top of already having ADD