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This has got to be the most destructive habit a man can engage in!

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Younameit, Jan 19, 2020.

  1. Hisself

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    I had a return of symptoms after that scrolling that I didn’t anticipate.. I felt on the verge of premature ejaculation for about a week, very very high anxiety/panic attacks, burning nerves, insomnia, nightmares, jolting awake, cold sweats at night etc.. I also went into a few deep flatlines lasting a day or 2 with complete anhedonia and nervousness also some brain fog and my vision was distorted.. now it’s like a very slight brainfog and anhedonia but most notably a major drop in confidence and all of my goals went out the window. I had quit smoking 3 months before this slip and started again during a panic attack and also had suicidal thoughts. My travel goals and dating went right out the window and now I’m just trying to make it he by hr and get through the day. Curiously though I was taking naps after lunch for the past few months but now I don’t feel the need since that slip
     
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  2. Hisself

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    One of the only things that has gotten me through the past 2 years is microdosing mushrooms. I’ve found that extremely beneficial
     
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  3. Younameit

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    He was using ED drugs
    eventually even the ED drugs stopped working
     
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  4. Younameit

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    could you elaborate on that
     
  5. Hisself

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    Sure, I had been thinking about what I want to do with my life and I’m a songwriter so I started actively searching for new band mates by going to open jams and open mics alone with just a guitar to meet people. I started saving money to travel the world someday. I quit smoking and drugs and alcohol and developed excellent health habits as far as diet and exercise as well as intermittent fasting. All of these went out the window with that brief exposure. I started slowly and painstakingly building the life I want and after that exposure all of my goals seem impossible, I’ve blown a lot of money on massages and sex therapists and junk food, have started skipping the gym and picked up nicotine again. Had I not slipped I know none of this would have happened. Long term goals that would fulfill me have been replaced by attempting to compose myself enough to get through each day without a breakdown or anxiety attack. Depersonalization and loss of personality as well as libido has left me aimless and confused with no ability or desire to think long term as I have no idea how I’ll feel or who I’ll be in a month or two. Each relapse or slip has taken me longer to recover from and I feel I have to struggle to build a new self each time I slip.
     
  6. He probably meant that he became numb to things including his goals.
     
  7. Ceuta4

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    This is the right feeling born from PMO and its awfull comsecuences. The worst habbit wich a man can take
     
  8. dboy18

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    It's the worst.
     
  9. Younameit

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    That scarily and accurately describes how I felt most of the time in my flatline
    if you want songwriting this means you'll need your creativity even more and like I said before creativity stems from a high, sexual libido/sex-drive, I know what it's like to feel blind creatively and emotionally
    what those guys from the law of attraction/esoteric/occult community talk about is real, you just don't feel like you're able to accomplish your goals, they seem impossible or not tangible, whereas when you have libido it's like they right there in front of you, it's just a matter of time and work, you know sooner or later you will achieve your goals no matter what
    lack of libido turn your whole life upside down
     
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  10. Younameit

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    another example
    we got a dude here (@Anti_coomer ) literally shooting testosterone and has his levels above the range (1000ng/dl) way higher than that of an 18 years old guy and he has zero libido
    how come a dude on anabolic steroids shooting testosterone has zero libido?
    how come this isn't worse than heroine @whysolong
     

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