Jobless, Degreeless & mentally impaired PMO addict need some advice & positivity desperately!

dude, benzodiazepine is just too god damn powerful and it will be extremely hard to get it in india, and just like i said, he needs to just vome down to basics, no pmo and severe lifestyle changes.

 

So I actually have a mental illness in which I collect disability for. You very well might have a disability too. Maybe you should try to pursue disability if that is something that your country offers. If you're unable to work or drive then that is kind of a big deal and it is going outside the scope of what porn really does to a person. If you masturbate to porn you will absolutely get anxiety, brain fog, and the inability to socialize with people. Maybe you look at porn so much that your symptoms are just that extreme but I think that there is something more going on.

No Medication ever is going to make you stop looking at porn and masturbating. Only your own self control is going to do that. You yourself is going to have to take control of your urges and stop looking at porn. You need to resist. It's going to take you a very long time. I'm not even kidding. It takes a while to stop looking at porn. So don't get disheartened. Force yourself to stop. IF you're ever bored do something, anything, other than porn. Boredom is your worst enemy. Get a job asap. Who cares what it is, get a job. You can't look at porn when your working.

BTW, there is nothing wrong with masturbation in itself. There is however wrong when you lust for women and masturbate. Lusting for women and masturbating is completely different than just masturbating. if your masturbation is getting in the way of your life in someway, then it's an issue.

Peace be with you friend, Jesus Christ loves you, follow Jesus.

 

wait is that ingredient harmful and contained in tea?

 

You are literally holding three pounds of explosives and smoking a cigar. Holy crap...
Porn and masturbation addict plus Ritalin is a massive problem, you are in real danger of shifting in to substance abuse.
60 milligrams a day is pretty high dose and your description on feeling like "superman" means you are getting high on Ritalin.

I have no doubts you take Ritalin and then go full out on porn and edging for a massive high.
I know it will probably not get to you but right thing to do is stop everything and seek professional help or strong support from your family/friends.
You are in big trouble, and you have to fix it now, or you will not even see it coming.

 

So, You ask for some positiveness? I am assuming that you're not happy with your life. I know this strategy that might improve your self esteem, confidence or worth. Trying to make change in your life starts with believing you can.

Just go look at yourself in the mirror. (If you don't have one use a selfie camera device on laptop etc). Get to know who you really are. Look at the background or your facial express/feelings. The key is to focus on the present moment. This will reduce the urge of using porn.

 

i think you should take monastery degree course where you can easily recover and become normal.I think there are some degree programs.Become overman.

 

To me, it sounds like something other than just PMO addiction. Then again, maybe PMO is a big part of it. I've had some pretty strange symptoms especially cognitive impairment. I would advice a drastic change for a period of months. Stop trying to succeed in the external world for at least 6-months and go into nature somewhere: the guy above mentioned a monastery. Maybe in India you could find a reputable ashram. Go there and just work on meditation and stress-free healthy-living until you are fully recovered. You can do this. Many people have been in similar positions as you and you still sound young too. Prayers to you friend.

 

I know the score , stop the ritalin , it makes your brain worse .

Get off the ssri

Get your hormones checked and if need be look into taking testosterone after a full health heart etc check up

A lot of the cognitive issues come as a result of ssri which also mess with your hormones and create a negative feedback loop that never gets fixed just more phsych drugs . Then they chuck in The ritalin which has far too many side effects and from someone diagnosed with ADHD the medications are overkill, I don't meet the diagnosis anymore, but I have dabbled in the medications , they are not needed , they cause too many problems , and cause the insomnia ,dehydration appetite suppressant, all bad for cognitive ability .

Then get a hold of pmo use, pmo depletes dopamine and causes brain fog.

You have a combination of things going on but trust me these are entirely resolvable to much happier and cognitively functional state .

I took an ssri it fuck my head up for quite a while, and my hormones where fucked because of it . My test level was very high but the ssri raised my shbg .which binds to your free test , basically I had all this year in my body but because of the ssri my body couldn't use it . Libido was dead and I was an anxious wreck for at least 4 years . The whole time I thought I had pssd and the ssri had seriously fucked me up.

A few years down the line I went to speak to a pediatrician , and got a prescription for amphetamines , he did don't believe it was necessary but we went through a trial, after about 3 months , it was absolutely clear they were doing me me much more harm than good... And I wouldn't go near them again.

About a year later alot of research and discussion online .

I learned how the ssri had messed me up .

I started taking testosterone despite my levels already being high . The test upregulated my shbg which increased my free testosterone , my estrogen was also very low . You need estrogen for sexual and cognitive function.
Low estrogen will also make you feel like you've lost girth .

About 6 weeks in , my sex drive went through the roof and my dick had a level of girth I hadnt experienced and in years .

After 5 years of post ssri sexual dysfunction , I was gettin random hard ons again, and the girth was back to an impressive state . That I previously thought I would never recover .

Before taking an ssri I was always calm and clear in my mind high sex drive , put muscle on easily , after the ssri , I couldn't feel myself urinatng , didn't feel orgasm , didn't get morning wood, anxiety, insomnia and just a nervous wreck . All because of the hormonal and chemical alterations from an ssri I discontinued years ago .

Testosterone completley reversed the damaged. I believe the will be on it now for the rest of my life because the benefits are too good in comparison to how fucked I was from pssd .

Now it's just a matter of managing estrogen , with estrogen managed , with high test levels , you are calm, focused, collected and stupid things don't bother you you can get hard easily and last long. Just generally feel healthy functioning as it should be , concentration is never a problem , only ever down to sleep, diet , hydration .

If estrogen is off , too low or too high you run into issues that effect libido , concentration .

But it's all manageable .

I'm not telling you what you should do , bit your story sounds something similar to mine and I found what worked for me and how these so called treatments are much more damaging , leading to more and more details he that don't actually feel X anything and create more sides


For me , the only drug I need is a healthy hormonal profile , good quality sleep, nutritionally dense diet , and abstain from pmo , and life is good,.much much better than a drug fuelled cocktail of cognitive disarray from SSRIs and meds like ritalin .

I would look into other avenues , discuss things online get your hormones checked and look into ways to reduce the strain on your brain and body , all these drugs run you into the ground

And you might find that the problems you experience could be the result of medications and hormonal imbalances

Get a job and make some money, think ahead of this situation to a time when things are good, were do you want to be , work for it and it will pay off.

Once you get your mind in all these drugs in order you will be in a much better position to sustain

And pmo also has much the same negative effects as an ssri , pmo can give you ed . Just get the facts dude and look after yourself , and work towards something better one step at a time