Back again - advice needed

Hi, I’m currently going through a very good spell of no porn - the problem is more now with my marriage.

I love my wife who has been so supportive despite everything I have thrown at her in the six years we have been together. I know that I have not been the husband she deserves by any means, yet she has stuck by me through it all.

This last week I have let her down two days in a row. Currently I am involved in an am dram show and she asked me if I would play hooky from rehearsal one evening as she was feeling lonely. She made it sound jokey (it wasn’t) and I went to rehearsal instead - I felt horrendous though and apologised afterwards. Then yesterday I was supposed to pick her up from a meeting and left too late because I hadn’t listened to her properly about the time I was supposed to leave, meaning she was stuck outside in the dark for ages. She was understandably furious with this.

The worst part of all this is that she has told me she doesn’t know if I love her anymore. After everything related to my addiction (lies, sneaking around etc) and now this I can see why she might think that.

She is everything to me and I would be lost without her. I need to commit myself to her more and to our relationship.

Has anyone else been in a similar situation?

 

You’re absolutely right. I think the reason I ended up in this position is I haven’t been talking to her when I should have done. That also includes listening to her better as well.

we had some good news the other day so things have improved. I just don’t know why I don’t stop and think more often before agreeing to something or assuming something else.