Hocd and porn addiction

Can you tell us a bit more about your background and why you're here? My initial thought, seeing as you're here and that presumably means you have a problem with porn, is that you will need to complete your reboot before you know what is happening with your sexuality. If you're a porn addict, your nervous system will be in total chaos and confusion. Don't think about it too much. Just get on with your recovery. Take your life focus away from sex for a while.

 

Abstain from all kinds of sexual stimulation including fantasy, and stop thinking about it. You can't solve this problem by thinking. Concentrate on something else in your life, preferably physical and social activity.

 

Yeah, I've also done it, but my fatass wouldn't allow it lol

Well if the urges die down when you ejaculate, you are not gay. You are just bamboozled by dopamine escalation. This is quite common as people seek novelty in porn constantly. Nofap will cure it, I promise.

 

Suffered through this, on the first month of my NoFap i had a wet dream where i was having sex with men. I ejaculated in my dream and woke up in horror. So we always remember bad dreams or dreams which we suddenly wake up from. I'm completely straight so this was a nightmare for me. I woke up panting but then i saw i came in my pants. This made me doubt my sexuality as i had PIED. I didn't let it escalate a bit and just stopped thinking about it. It's your brain trying to trick you to masturbate and get that shot of dopamine. Since i was scared that I'm turning gay, i would check by PMOing so the brain would get it's hit of dopamine. There are a lot of tricks your mind will play on you but don't let it trick you, just don't PMO. Eventually these urges would die as you enter flatline.

 

I’ve been a member for quite some time, and have started and stopped a few times for various reasons, with different levels of success. While I’m rebooting again now, about 2 weeks in. I was able to change my thoughts and urges once I better understood what was happening. Yes, I also had gay thoughts BUT was not turned on by anything gay. The problem is, that watching porn is not natural. You’re essentially watching another man have sex with a woman. You’re conditioning your body to be stimulated not by the woman, but by watching. I read plenty of posts on this. Use this as motivation to stop, and make a hard rule that you will stay away from any genre of porn that encourages this!

stay strong, stay active. Reach out to people or the group if you need to speak.