Day 60 - Numb

60 Days without any p***, any attempt to even masterbate. But Day 60, feels like Day 30. Not so much of a change.

I do have my highs and lows throughout the day. The highs are more profound, that I can say. But I still get low sometimes. The key difference is that the mark of 60 keeps me motivated and confident. It makes me feel more alpha, I dunno why. And so the low doesn't has much of an impact.

Diet has changed considerably. I eat a lot less now. Though, the effect on my skin is the same as it was on day 30. I guess it will take more time. I excercise every single day. That's another thing, I do without getting unmotivated. It feels fun now. And more easy too. And easy because, I guess I have more energy now.

Psychological changes; A lot. By A Lot, I mean, A Lottttt! Video games and movies seem boring now. Waste of time. And so does the freakin' internet, along with youtube. I want to do something now. Something to change myself. Make a career, be more motivated. I finally want to study. Study by myself. That's huge. Because it means I may be able to score more now. Studies seem more interesting now.

The rest of my life, well it's as calm as the night sky. Numb. Nothing really much going on. One thing that has been there too since day 30, has been this feeling of being at 0. At 0, you feel nothing. It's a middle line. A line of calmness. That's what I feel now.

Day 60 and pushing to 90. Will give an update once I reach 90.

Thanks Guys!