35 and older accountability, Group 2

Remind us again what you’ve done to reach this! Need to steal from you!

 

I am having a good week connecting with people and being present for the joys in my life. I have a job interview today and I’m feeling anxious and nervous to perform well.

 

I have read the rules and would like to join the group.
If no opening right now, please add me to the waitlist. Thanks.

 

Hey! Sorry for drop out.
I relapsed at 45 days out of 60! But that was the longest I had ever gone! Thank you for your support. I will bow out of this group for now. Thanks!

 

doing good - other than a stomach flue everything else is in check here.

what is working well for me

1. meditating first thing in the morning before everyone else wake up
2. Reading spiritual literature bringing the mind to spiritual reality rather than material things
(there is a small book called "as bill sees it" it is extractions of the words of bill from AA- i find reading little bits of it in morning keeps m aware of the dept of my problem and keeps me grounded to not think i am over this lifetime problem)

3. disciplining the mind to be as mindful as possible - if any lust or images come instantly nip it in the but through investigating its suffering nature

4. Avoiding all normal worldly entertainments - mindless browsing social media all have been eliminated and there is a sense of peace.Absolutely no drugs/alcohol

> I created a what's app group in the area of meditation and I have a small community now that i relate to on daily bases - i find this has been a grate replacement for my facebook addiction. interacting only with noble friends and having noble conversions.

 

Why are you bowing out?

 

I have really been focused on 5,6,7 lately and they have helped.

 

Thank you for sharing.

5, 6, and 7 especially resonate with me now. I have a lot of work to do in those areas.

 

I appreciate your sharing this. I've rarely had the desire to watch P, but too often I've entertained, in my mind, and with fond rememberances, past porn scenes, fantasies, and past sexual experiences. But I know that a few seconds of self-induced pleasure won't come close to matching my newfound level of joy, energy, strength, and purpose.

 

How did the job interview go?

 

Nailed it. Trying not to future trip and just be happy I won the interview and am one of only two candidates. I was really proud yesterday. But also nervous about maybe leaving my current job for the unknown.
If I hadn’t done the work on my mind this weekend, I wouldn’t have been ready to ace it when the opportunity came out of the blue.

Two weeks without porn does wonders for feeling of inadequacy and shame.

 

Had to reset my counter. I have been being very careless with edging and not following my self care plan. I am recommitting to following my plan. I will not let the month of sobriety go to waste. I will draw strength from that time while ultimately focusing on becoming a new person.

 

Nice job! Keep us posted. I'm rooting for you Brother

 

Thank you for your candor and resilience. People who don't give up inspire me.

Have a great weekend Brother

 

Thought I would check in. Hit day 90 today. Did not think it was possible. Was really hard to make it this far. It does get easier as your brain moves through the worst of the dopamine withdrawal.