From Porn to Paintings- From Darkness into Light

Thanks discovery for your detailed answer!

Today I did Art Visualisation for the first time.
I had been working until late in the evening and after that I had eaten Falafel at a wonderful place. The men working there are refugees from Syria. They're really nice! They call each other "Habibi" and gave me, their costumer, the greatest attention.
So I was in a good mood when I walked home through the night. That's when I decided to the Visualisation at home.

At first it was a little bit difficult. A little bit like meditation: many distracting thoughts came up and I tried not to think that much. I was also thinking about writing this post about my experience which was the biggest distraction until the end. You can't experience something fully, when you think all the time about WHAT you experience and HOW you tell others about it later.

The next trouble was the music. I looked for music that would fit the painting, later I looked for a good painting for my music, that is, for a good combination of both. I was offline so I had only my own music and although I've got quite a collection, most of it just don't fit. For example, I've got only 3 pieces of classical music.

I used three paintings. The first random chosen painting was a landscape with a mother and her children walking on a muddy path through a rainstorm. The viewpoint is behind the group, so that you can't see any faces. Not the most delightful scene but interesting and moving never the less. With strong beautiful colors.

I tried some of your techniques and I think it made me going deeper into the painting, seeing more details and feeling much more IN the scene. Also I wondered about the woman and her children. But I couldn't think of any definite story.

As I said, I had problems finding the right music. But then I found a long recording of birds chirping and singing. Therefore I choosed blooming landscapes as my second and third painting. One was an avenue in Autumn. I was standing on that avenue looking straight at the red sun setting at the end of that avenue. The trees on both sides had already lost their leaves and the white (!) ground were full of red foliage. Far away were some little figures, maybe peasants.

The third picture was called Cherry Blossom Time and was that kind of landscape where everyone wants to have a picnic or a romantic meeting or just lay in the grass warmed by the sun. It had a beautiful meadow with white and yellow flowers and many big trees, some green and some pink.

There I had a perfect combination. I tuned down the bird sounds a bit and additionally played Pink Floyd The Division Bell (only tracks without singing voice). I enjoyed the music and this wonderful painting with the birds singing. Ideas popped up, like laying in the grass, eating an apple from a tree, running around the trees, sitting against one tree and most of all: looking at the scenery from all possible angles, looking at what's near and what's far. I imagined not only myself but also other people doing these things. I imagined children playing there. I also could smell things ... or nearly.

First all these ideas were quite randomly and not so specific. But I was sucked into the picture, more and more. Suddenly I was with a beautiful young girl. We played around and then I could see her face. It was like in a dream. She had delicate features and freckles (I didn't know her but I know that type, I mean I have seen women looking like her). She had long hair. She laughed. From the trees pink and white petals fall onto her, covered her hair (I think she was blonde). These scenes were so intense I nearly cried. In reality I didn't cry, but in my imagination, under the tree, I did. She did also. She was so beautiful - both laughing and with tears on her face. (It was emotionally so overwhelming therefore the crying. Not out of sadness.)
Then, after it was most intense, I ended it.

In retrospective, I think many of the techniques you mention, are really difficult - at least for me. But I think it's just a question of training.
On the other hand I already experienced the thing you're talking about: to be in the painting. I was in there. Incredible!

 

I forgot to say that in retrospective I found it strange how close it actually was to pmo. In a way. I mean I went on a quest for the "right" picture, tried out several and finally found the "best" one and had a rush of fantasy and strong feelings until some kind of climax.
It's only a superficial resemblance, but one I didn't expect.
Probably I wouldn't even say this, if it wasn't for that girl in my visualisation. Although it was so innocent it still was a sexual fantasy and I'm not really surprised that something like that happened in my first try.
On the other hand this was more than just one of those sexual fantasies that pop up so easily. As I said, it was like in a dream. Closer to the heart ...

 

This method sounds awesome. I'll start downloading some paintings at once. Thank you so much for sharing!

 

Hi, loved the method. Is amazing how powerful this is. Thank you!

On the other hand, is there any chance you upload your collection of art here? I found some but it gets difficult to find the correct paintings.

Thanks, really.

 

I did "AV" again. Don't know what took me so long. I should do it without pressure, but often. It does me so well!

More Art, more visualisation in 2020
I also want to post some painting here, now and then.

 

yes, thank you!
I think I don't need to ask "what took me so long?". It's just a new habit and although it brings me joy already, I need to remind me to keep the thing going and put some effort in it.

 

QUESTION:
Which do you use the most to find inner peace?

1. Physical exercise
2. Religion/ Spirituality
3. Meditation/ Visualization
4. Connecting with friends/ family
5. Hobbies/ Keeping a Diary/ Journal

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ANSER:
ALL OF THEM! - The tricky part of it is to properly sense out the right moment for the right thing, and keep them all in some best proportion at any given period of time - it takes quite some diligence to properly figure it out for the best possible benefits.

 

Which do you use the most to find inner peace - AND ... what they mean to you?

1. Physical exercise - cardio, weights, stretching
2. Religion/ Spirituality - study, contemplation, insight
3. Meditation/ Visualization - design, timeblocking, journalling
4. Connecting with friends/ family - give most time and attention to those with biggest potential
5. Hobbies/ Keeping a Diary/ Journal - painting, drawing, poetry

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That's one of the best lists I've seen, regarding recovery
Simple but effective

 

Again, thousand thanks @discovery for that ... discovery!
I didn't practice it very often yet and I haven't written about my experiences often here. But I consider it a long time project. Moreover, it was simply a total new perspective for me.

 

Superb! Really looking forward to getting into this. Hope it's ok I have copied most of your signature, as I really like the links.