(23yo) 18 Reasons of Why PMO has fucked with me (gay, prostitutes, trans, etc.)

Thank you man!

Day 5, here we go

 

A bit of update:

Day 12

Regarding mood and clarity of mind I am doing just fine

Also I am exercising, doing yoga and running, which gives me a lot of overall wellbeing

But because I tried really hard to fuck a chick with a boyfriend and didnt suceed:

- She was on and off all the time
- I was not very hard/erect on the decisive moments where I could just push things a little bit and make her touch my Willy or get her to suck it
- was not believing in myself because I was not really the main dish of this chick(might have some emotional or self love issues here to be honest)
- Overall regrets and feeling of disrespect to myself
- etc

Then I really decided for her to leave the apartment and just continue with our life's (as well as telling her some of my stoic philosophical bullshit about that she shouldn't be afraid of breaking up her relationship, etc)

AND FUCKKK

THE URGES CAME BACK AS A BIIIIG BITCH

Then I did a 12km run, got really high on weed afterwards and eventually ended up installing grindr, shit.

I was kind of just looking around if there was someone younger than me to suck me up, but it was more of a fantasy rather than something that I would actually do

I played around with the idea for a while and then turned off the phone and went to sleep

Woke up just fine and full of energy, yesterday was a warning,

dont get too involved with chicks and chasing sex, just relax and do the reboot!

cheers guys!

 

Mother of god guys

Day 2

Fucked it all over for 2 days with Grindr, almost met a trannie, was very close but thankfully I did not.

Then I had another fap but just with fantasy about the Russian girl that turned me on so much.

I added one thing to this challenge, as I have some friends involved in the challenge, the last fap that I did I payed my friend 17$ as he was on a 17 days streak.

So if I fap again, I will pay my friend the days of his own nofap streak, this is just a negative inforcement in order to stop nofap.

As the month is coming to an end, I will add a new matrix to the equation, will now count my monthly faps:

January 2020 faps: 15

1-10 January = 11 faps
23 January = 1 fap
27 January = 2 faps
28 January = 1 fap

 

hahaha good question, honestly I feel like 2 different persons depending on the situation, as:

• If I am home alone and start fapping, then I escalate to grindr and at that point I get turned on by the idea of fucking a trannie.
• If I am with friends or just simply walking on the street, if I see a trannie I dont get turned on at all, for me it is more of a fantasy that comes when I am numbed by constant PMO

Been in an amazing routine lately and really focussing on not using my phone more than 1 hour a day and working my ass off towards getting a new job in Data Science (HUGE struggle coming a business background), but when I am focussed on my life, seeing things as they are, accepting shit and analyzing all my feelings and not fapping I can totally tell you that I have no desires of having my winnie sucked by a trannie.

Basically I could tell you that recovery is possible and I will show it you

Good luck on your recovery!!

 

meeehhh

not really going to meet a trannie on purpose honestly, fuck that

 

MAAAAAAAAAAN

That is exactly the attitude that you must have, literally take care of yourself. When a woman sees that you are a man who focusses on his self and his not going out there just pleasing chicks and saying what he trully believes, oh boy, the sky is the limit in terms of getting girls haha

Hope you are having a good job or you are getting a college degree [you can get attractive to many chicks just by having a cool job].

Take care of your facial skin

Dress well

Get in shape

Read a lot of books

 

Hey man, dammit, I really misjudged you honestly. I kind of interpreted that your comment was negative/trolling but I realize I was wrong.

Now that I have a better understading of what have you gone through, I see your way of thinking and interpreting reality.

Been reading during last week a book called Atomic Habits which for me is the most complete guide avaible in order to change and understand your habits. One of the points that the authour argues is that habits are lightened by a cue or a stimulus. There is a conception in the society that people who have very high willpower are the ones who can change their habits. There is a common understanding that we must relly on a high willpower in order to do that.

WRONG.

High "willpower" people do not really have such a big strength as we might think, they are just LESS exposed to bad habits. They tend to have less moments of "bad vs good" choice, but instead, they are more exposed to the good choices, as they have a "better choices" environment.

There are many things that are wired up in our neurotransmiters and that takes quite a lot of time to be weakened or to be erased. (this is what I am aiming for with NoFAP, weaken those conections acquired).

And because of this, WE MUST NOT BE EXPOSED TO STIMULI that might light up our old behavioural patterns, but instead HIDE THEM in order to be less exposed.

This is in the case, you are actually trying to stop a fetish as I am. The times I was with in a trannie where moments in my life where I was feeling very numb and weak.

But anyways, transgendered people is a thing that does not really affect me in this moment, I am way more concerned with mastubating in general and just to give a 3 months break for my brain to feel the intensity of sex as I used when I was younger. Last years have been way too sexual and was not really enjoying the interactions, it was more of an impulse for very basic and non-meaningful sex.

Good luck on your journey,

Enjoy the latino blood haha

 

Hope you will do GREAT with your journey,

Read Allen Carr's reshaped version from a guy who just apllied the original ideas of quitting smoking to PMO.

https://sites.google.com/site/SPAM REMOVED (spam code #001) - REPORT TO MODERATION/home

It just made such a BIG impact on me, I read it in 24 hours and just stick with it.

I know that the writing style sucks, but it really gets you to reconsider your habits and it is the perfect place to start a TRUE mindset change.

Stay sharp, all the best

 

Wow man that's awesome!!

Read this book diagonally on the stuff that you already know, as much of the knowledge you already know it from the Forum.

But there are some points around the 60-90% of the book that are just FANTASTIC