Mind hijacked by sexual thoughts 24 hrs , no hope suicide looks easy way

I’m sorry to hear you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing ups and downs during reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings won’t last forever. It will get better with time if you’re patient and wait.

In the meantime please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis we often need someone there to put our life into perspective. So please contact someone that can help and don’t hang up on them.

https://www.iasp.info/
The international association for suicide prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world.

http://suicidestop.com/suicide_prevention_chat_online.html
If you don’t feel like talking to someone on the phone, they maintain a list of online instant messaging suicide prevention resources.

You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes you feel like you don’t have anymore options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you and will be cheering for you to get through this!

 

No matter how down you are right now there is always hope that things can get better. You might be struggling right now, but that struggle can make it all worth it in the end. Try to start improving your life in small ways. Nofap is great but it is only one small part of changing your life.

In time away from PMO your sexual thoughts and fantasies do get better. Learning about your addiction can be a good start. Learning when, why and how you relapse can also be a big help.

Unfortunately this is not an overnight success and this process takes time. All is not lost after a relapse, we must learn from them and continue on. Even starting this journey is a courageous step in your life


I would agree with what @faker #57 said. If you are really struggling i would highly recommend checking out the hotlines he posted or going to see a doctor in person. They may be able to help you manage these thoughts. We don't know you so we cant really give you specific advice. You have a lot of support on this forum so take heart that we are all with you in this time of struggle

 

Dude you made 30 and 40 days. Be proud.

 

Agreed. There are many porn addicts that can’t make it 30 mins let alone 30 days. Look it’s going to take a few weeks for your mind to calm back down again. Porn is like any other addictive substance. If a crack addict smokes crack he is going to crave crack again for AWHILE. It’s withdrawal and it’s an unfortunate side effect of relapse. Dude you can come out if this.

 

Yeah. It’s not that you’re horny all the time that you need to pmo it’s that you’re conditioned to pmo when horny. I was horny all the time when I was a kid but I didn’t pmo I just thought about approaching women a lot. A crackhead always looks for that next dose cause of the high. Other ways of getting high without actually doing crack....

The easy way out is not the most fulfilling way out. Let’s just say that.

 

It’s likely a combination of both.
Speaking for myself, when i relapse to pmo my thoughts become obsessive.
I get stuck on sexual images, and even negative thoughts in general.
But the further you move away from your last relapse,
the less obsessive your thoughts become, and the sexual flashbacks die down.
Your brain definitely wants more of it’s favorite drug (pmo),
that’s why you’re getting the flashbacks. But it does get better with time.

I definitely agree with the other posters that if you’re feeling like harming yourself,
Please don’t, and contact a hotline.

otherwise, i’d recommend going outside (away from electronic screens) and getting some exercise. That can help distract you from the flashbacks. Reading up on pmo addiction is also extremely helpful. The more you know how this addiction works, the better equipped you will be to fight it.

 

Hmm, you’ve got a lot of stuff going on there.
Unfortunately recovery from this condition takes time,
and i don’t know of a way to speed it up.

Your brain has to unlearn the current behavior (pmo is good for me),
and that only happens when you stop pmo for a certain length of time.

The following 2 books have been extremely helpful for me, so i recommend reading them:
“No more mr nice guy” by Robert Glover - has a lot of great stuff on why us addicts self medicate with pmo. Understanding the why helps reduce the desire to engage in pmo.
“The porn trap” by wendy and larry maltz - has some good stuff on triggers and urges.

i also recommend looking into meditation.
I currently meditate 10 mins every morning, every single day.
I can honestly say that has had a major impact on my recovery.
Meditation will help you not obsess over urges to pmo, so they fade away more quickly,
lowers your anxiety, and releases dopamine in a healthy way which also reduces your need to pmo.

no particular advice on food (eat healthier maybe if you’re eating a lot of junk ?)
oh yeah, and no alcohol or drugs as those will weaken your willpower and usually result in a relapse.

 

Your brain chemistry gets unbalanced due to pmo addiction.
This is what causes the extreme anxiety, ocd, depression, etc...
Which chemicals are involved is not that relevant as the fix is the same.
Staying away from pmo allows your brain chemistry to re-balance itself and most of these symptoms will clear up.

 

fasting does work, but the thing is you gotta fast several days which is hard as fuck. if you fast a day, you'll feel better but soon as you eat, your body is gonna churn everything you eat into jizz and youll be jizzing all over the place.

it takes 2 weeks of NOT EATING to reset the brain from a serious porn addiction. once you have freed yourself, go back into the pit and help others, but be warned. your newfound job of EXORCIST is the most dangerous job on this earth. shit will happen you will not believe, if you try to free souls from this bondage. shit will happen you did not think possible, you will think these demon is actually God himself. but if you can overcome the delusion, and he does not kill you, and you can save souls, you need to realize, every soul you save from the BEast, you are weakening him. save one soul, is a significant blow. save 10 souls from extreme spiritual bondage and that is enough to see a real shift in the hive mind of your local populace.


I must warn you, if there is ANYTHING in this world you love, and hold dear, walk away. even if SAtan cannot possess YOU, he will totally utterly destroy anything , anyone you love. he will turn the people you thought were real, into raving lunatics, he will torture your pets. not a joke, this is very real. possessed people will attack you, provoke you in everyway.

what you are fighting is the force that owns this planet, owns this earth and has owned it for thousands of years under different disguises, so yes, principalities and powers ain't nuttin to fuck wit, but fear not those who can destroy your body, fear those who can destroy your souls.

and that's exactly what is going on with porn, destruction of people's souls



these movies give you some clues, but not the whole picture.

 

My impression is that your thoughts are still centred around porn and sex, just in a negative way. You don't have to work everything out in your thoughts. Find something else to occupy your mind, preferably a healthy physical activity. Go for a walk and pay attention to what is around you, not to your thoughts. Don't try to suppress the thoughts because that is still thinking about them, going round in circles. You can't think your way out of thinking. Move your attention to what is around you, out there in the world.