The main reasons I prefer blockers?

So I have explained many times in posts I don't use a smart phone, I don't have a tv, and I have my laptop blocked up beyond belief. My friend is the administrator of my laptop and holds all the log in details and passwords to the blockers, and I just use a standard account on my laptop. Long story short I can hardly see anything that causes me to relapse, and trying to bypass the blockers isn't even worth it to me that it would be so much hassle, so I don't even try.

But I have always thought no way I can refuse porn without blockers. But recently I have been in a few situations I have been really horny, I have had access to porn, yet I have still refused it. Basically I have issues with alcohol, and it is becoming more and more clear to me the hangovers from the drinking is the main cause of my PMO relapses. I haven't drank any alcohol in 8 days and I nearly have a week long streak of no porn or artificial sexual stimulation. Tonight I was left in my parents house and they were going to be out for hours, and I had access to one of my parents laptops when they were away. So I went on their laptop and went incognito mode and had a peak at porn. I felt extremely aroused when I was looking at it, and I have my own room still at my parents so I could of went and jacked off to this porn if I wanted to. But I thought to my self no I am better off just not doing that. So I am glad I turned it off and still refused it.

So yes I can clearly see refusing porn and artificial sexual stimulation is much easier for me if I am not drinking. But I also realise this doesn't mean I couldn't relapse on it if I am not drinking.

The thing I like about the blocking system I have in place is it basically takes the temptation away completely from going on porn and artificial sexual stimulation, because I simply can't access it. This makes it very easy. But I think if I didn't have this blocking system even if I am off alcohol that it will be a constant battle of having to fight the temptation, from time to time constantly getting urges to peak, and then constantly having to battle the urge to PMO. Like I said with the blockers it takes away the temptation and somewhat makes it easy which I admit I actually prefer.

It honestly feels like the blocking system makes me not need to use my own willpower, and I actually prefer that. I feel like I prefer not having to use my own willpower.

Are we really supposed to live in a world where we can access all that stuff any time we want yet we are supposed to constantly refuse it?

It just seems like it's going to be a constant life long battle trying to stay away from all that stuff.