Hate it here

And you're probably right. So if 90% of it is on your mental health, you know what yku havr to do: take care of your (mental) health.

That would probable be a psychologist or therapist of some sort. It's a great idea id you can afford it.


How to take care of your mental health:

- quit porn.
- abstain from masturbation.
- get rid of the other bad habits you may have.
- keep your place tidy.
- take care of your body.
- exercise.
- >>> MEDITATE <<<
- Talk to a therapist.
- Read books on anxiety, stress, depression and addiction.
- Start a journal (here or hardcopy) and write down your thoughts and anything elze you wanna write.
- learn any other healthy coping mechanisms.
- find hobbies.


Right now you are completelt under the control of youe thoughts and emotions. You have to break the circle.

Good luck.

 

@Optimum Fortitude has given you a ton of great advice! It's all about mental health. get that right. Then main thing is not to hate yourself or beat yourself up. That only keeps you in the spiral. Hate porn. Hate what it does to you. Hate where it takes you Hate what it makes you do. But love yourself. Love the future you can create by dumping this problem. Love the life you can make by getting rid of this. If God loves and forgives you, you must also love and forgive yourself.

 

Name your demon. By that I mean say what it is you are fighting in yourself. It will give others with the same battle a better handle for support and advice. One thing for sure Beat Porn #1priority.

 

I think it's important to recognize that you are not your thoughts. To stop judging your thoughts as good or bad and to recognize them as just thoughts. The more you react to intrusive thoughts the more they will keep showing up in your head. It's uncomfortable to not react to them, but you will adjust and doesn't matter how vial or blasphemous the thought it's just a thought.

 

Other users have posted some great advice for you already and you should definitely consider what they are saying.

Just want to add a thought that helped me - don’t think you’re abnormal or possessed or weird! It is totally normal to want to fap and be sexually and fantasize. That is normal. There are tons of people here who have done what you’ve done! Realizing that has blessed me greatly. I am not alone in this!

This has given me more love for myself, more patience, and more strength to fight it.

 

Sounds like you might have OCD—either way there’s definitely anxiety going on. This sounds like me a few years ago but I’m on anti-depressants now. Not only can I control my thoughts much better now but I’m also not horny all the time after taking them. Anyway, talk to a professional—they will help you more than we can as each person has their own unique struggle

 

I feel just like you OP "possessed" by something...I hate it.

 

Absolutely felt tons of shame and tons of feelings of worthlessness and being unlovable. That was several years ago when I first tried fighting this.

I think one of the most important lessons I learned is that I am not some awful unlovable human being. Rather I am a good person who happens to do bad things sometimes. I’m not exactly sure how I finally realized this but part of it was accept that I had a problem and it was okay to have problems (every single person on planet earth has problems). Another part was learning how to like myself. Look for the good in you. It is there for sure! Focusing on how bad you are might help you white knuckle through some tough times and keep you from relapsing for a bit but if you want to have real recovery it has to come from a place of love. Another part is connecting with others with the same kind of issues. In person meetings at 12 step groups helped a ton though I have a hard time going since I don’t consider myself a true addict (or at least I’m unsure). But they helped a lot initially because I found a place where I belonged and saw people who had overcome a great challenge with lots of sobriety living happy wonderful lives. It gave me hope.

Hope this helps a bit!