Coming to terms with this addiction

I've been trying to quit porn for about 4 years now. I've been addicted for at least 10 years, I first started watching porn around the age of 8 or 9 when my brother introduced me to it.

I've made alot of improvements in the last 4 years, my frequency of use is down, I watch less and less degrading porn. I only watch soft stuff now, no fetish.

The problem is that I have been postponing many things in my life because of this addiction. I've been putting off moving into a new career field because I have this thought that I need to quit this addiction before switching jobs so I will be fully prepared. I also seem to postpone hanging out with friends because alot of times I have head fog from a binge and I feel that I wont be any fun, so I end up being alone and relapsing more, and sinking further and further.

I feel as though it may be a long time before I beat this addiction, and I need to come to terms with that. I can't put my life on hold in the hope that I will quit pmo in the near future, so then I will do what I need to further myself In life. I need to do these things now, regardless of pmo draining me of confidence and energy, I'm getting older now too so it will just get harder if i put my life on hold so I can recover from pmo.

I feel like I just need to know that it's okay to be addicted to pmo right now. Not that pmo itself is okay, but the fact that its apart of my life and I cant let that get in the way of things.