Accountability for All

Day 7 done. The urges are starting to eat at me now but I will not break.

 

It's only getting worse and worse. Seriously the fantasies are completely killing me. I relapsed once 4 days ago and now I did the same thing. Like whenever the fantasies kick in, my primal desire to just dry hump takes over entirely and I have NO CONTROL over myself. The only difference this time was that I leaked really badly beforehand. I did do it afterwards out of immense frustration but stopped earlier than last time. I'm not sure exactly but, I think I came a bit earlier before I even decided to prone. I thought fantasies and urges get easier and easier to contain, not harder and harder. Well there goes more and more reasons to get my genitals removed. Without them I can't do it or have a existing sex drive. It can't be that miserable right???

 

Day 24

 

I relapsed 3 days in a row now. Today I clearly did not fight my urges for porn but I want to make this a step in the right direction. I’m watching this thread and I hope to get on it as soon as I have urges and not wait till a certain time of day where I know I won’t be tempted

 

I've alienated all of you these past few weeks and ultimately have alienated myself. I realize that I need you guys in my life. I was trying to keep myself accountable but this, right here, is of utmost importance. I need to be able to talk to someone. I need to talk to you guys. I'm sorry I've let you guys down. I want to start back again. Start keeping up with posting. It definitely helps. Please forgive and pray for a brother. You guys are the best.

 

Hi everyone,
I relapsed yesterday and thus I'm starting the NoFap challenge again.
That's why I need you guys for accountability.
Let's all do this together !
Bye

 

Just woke up! Small urges but I plan to hop on the forum next time I feel like looking up porn. Going for 24 hours only but today should be handled well!

 

Well I guess the 1st day again is done. My head is buzzing with memories and killing me and I have no motivation for anything. Even looking at a planet fitness made me feel really creepy and 1 year ago I could have gone in there with zero issues.

 

I'm new, can I join this, is this how I join by posting?

 

Yesterday was good. Had some urges but resisted. Honestly I came home late from work and was so tired I couldn’t really move. Probably need to continue with that logic. Just stay at work as long as I can haha

 

Just woke up, 48 hours since my relapse and fighting urges to look at porn today. I’ll stay posted how things go but so far so good

 

Day 26 done

 

These horrible, horrible memories and fantasies are literally destroying me and making me hit my head. They're making me leak, I've been punching, trying to rip my hair out, feeling immense frustration over my fat fetish/attraction towards big girls. Not even trying to build puzzles is helping me.

 

Just finished day 4.

 

Starting again with day 1 today

 

Day 27