[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Got it thank you

 

Day 7! Feeling subtle urges today, like I know that PMO is there if I want it / if I want to use it as a coping mechanism to feel 'better' momentarily. I must fight this and not give in!

 

Day 5.

Still going Yesterday, my ears were blocked, so the doctor solved that, and I have one less weight on my shoulder. ^^
However I catched another cold right after my last one, if not a sore throat and slightly inflamed ears. Might have been also due to my blocked ears which is now solved. (The tinnitus also decreased I think)

I managed to fall asleep yesterday, soon enough to wake up earlier than the last time I tried, although I opted to take non-prescription medication which helped to shorten the time to fall asleep. The goal is to correct my sleep schedule, so I can go back to normal again, without the medication of course. Probably I'll have to start doing exercise and meditation and step by step some socializing. All of which will aid my healing process.

Slight cravings here and there, but like I said before, after all this, I won't be falling back any time soon, if not ever. And somehow I feel super determined. I don't know why but...probably because I started working on my videogame again.
I showed the game to a friend of mine from work, and he wants to see updates. That motivated me.
Just like this community motivates me. Even at the times when I don't feel motivated, I still know that you are there and that everything I need is already here.
And that I am not alone. It's like a reminder.

Thank you guys, I know that things will happen this year! The good long-term things!

I'll keep you updated.

Let's keep going!

Many blessings and hugs.

 

You can do this. Journal what you did that got you to relapse. 3 things. Circumstances, feelings and what you did about them.
Then write what you will do the next time it happens again, choosing a healthy response or action. It won't always remove all the pain and urges at the moment of craving, but there's where you put in some of that willpower and self-talk and you can get through it. Sleep well to replenish your energy, so that you are prepared everyday. Sleep is the most important.
And trust me, if you do this, there's no way you won't recover, because that's where the actual change takes place.
It is part of the recovery.

You can do this!

Cheers.

 

Thanks man! I appreciate it.
I feel good, although these days, this past week in particular, I've been fighting off urges to log into porn for 'old times sake'. I have this feeling like I need to watch/ PMO for a couple days to get it out of my system. Which is complete bullshit!! That does not work. It's like a recovering alcoholic saying they will get drunk just this one weekend to get it out of their system. It's an all or nothing thing. Last year I tried allowing myself porn 1 day a week with 6 days clean. That lasted a month until I entirely slid back into old ways. That does not work.

 

just another day...another simple progress...day 2

 

Day 4

 

Day 0 i'm in this challenge.

 

Restarting.... Have been right back where I started more than a year ago. Same old, same old. Starting the new this 90 day challenge... I need support and hope to lend it.

 

Me too, I've made it month before so know it's possible. Just don't look at ANYTHING one day or hour at a time. Press on regardless, Skynet

 

Sure bro....
I will be there after 3 days...

 

Day 6 no PM

 

Completed day 4. Which was a bit tricky had some sexually urges during the day. But was always distracting myself.
Now let's see how day 5 goes. Feeling confident and self control

 

Day 48 ))

Congrats and please to us all too ! I may joing you in the 120 day challenge after this one It just helps reinforce our new way of life But first I need to finish this!

 

Day 8 today! Feeling a bit lethargic but work has been crazy too so I'm sure that is part of it. Anyway, another day off no PMO in my life can only be a good thing, no matter how I feel during this reboot.

 

Congratulations brother!!! Keep moving, you´re doing great

 

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yes, i have that symptom also. "man, if i could just watch some nudes, i would ease and relax a bit more". nop, it´s gonna be exactly the opposite way. the cravings will go on, stronger, until a full relapse occurs.

Let us be smarter than the addiction, our porn addicted brain doesn´t know better, but we do. Let´s go!!!!!

 

75 days my brothers. Yes we can.

 

Hahahahaha, thanks for the support Bro! Together we are stronger!!