Accountability for All

Psyched to get to 1 week! Hoping to keep it rolling. Want to get to 90 days and ultimately never look at porn again... I also used to fall back when I would search for bathing suit pictures or something like that. and that would lead me down the path. So, part of my goal is to look at nothing like this... Trying not to look at my computer as much too. There's this cool text mode thing in google too where it turns everything black and white and doesn't show pictures on anything. easy to turn on and off, but awesome at blocking "sexy" ads...

 

Well I finally watched porn after 6 months of absistence. It was not worth it one bit. Compared to masturbation by itself, it's far more shameful. Even after relapsing the past few days, I didnt feel a need to shower right after for how shameful I felt or did I get the same huge dopamine spike I got from going back. Don't watch porn. It's the evil at hand. Without Porn, masturbation and orgasm are much much MUCH easier to control. Now i'm more determined than ever to quit this filth. As for what I'm trying to say is that porn is the true evil. You probably don't even think of masturbating without it. I literally just threw 6 months of avoiding porn down the drain for 3 minutes of pleasure.

As for a question: how long will it take for prolactin to recede? This evil, evil hormone is super bad. Even for women who have much higher prolactin than men, too much is a bad thing.

 

Just finished day 5.

 

wasted my 28 days starting from scratch

 

Day 4 going strong. Little urges and didn’t look at porn

 

28 days is pretty healthy! It’s been a few years since I did that last

 

Day 2 done

 

Addiction is real - it's physiological and it's mental. It's a vicious cycle, but you can break, start a new streak and stay strong!

 

Im terrible. I can’t keep failing like this. I didn’t want to post here out of embarrassment but I needed to hold myself accountable. I don’t know how I’ll ever beat this

 

Had a crazy week and forgot/didn’t get on here because it wasn’t prioritised. Did a few days early this week and the caved for the end of the week. So back to day 1 today lol, but this time I will keep consistent to coming on here at a minimum even if I fuck up.

 

I relapsed today but I don’t feel ashamed! Just know you always will have the chance to turn around and look the other direction. I struggle with staying on the right path but you shouldn’t lose hope in yourself or your sanctity

 

Just relapsed, gonna start over again. I plan on sharing my experiences when I wake up again to see if I relapse again before work, but I am going to give it my best to not give in. Today I have in because I let myself go weak and give in but I want to try and make this next week better, hoping to go 7 days without porn or masturbating!

 

just try to start on day 1, try to avoid triggers, read the forums here. see what's working for people. you can get over this addiction. it's real, but you get over it

 

Day 7 done. Keep going guys don't give up.

 

Day 1 gone. Mostly just really depressed. Don’t know what hurts more: not being able to beat this thing or not being to finish something I’ve started. Just feel so defeated still

 

I believe these problems we all face work on many levels and are multi dimensional. Of course they are challenging but not impossible to overcome

 

Almost 24 hours since my relapse, feeling good that I got on the forum right away. If I have urges come up today I hope to share them on here and abstain from porn or masturbating

 

Starting my new journey from tommorow