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Hey so this is my first time trying Nofap. My story probably goes back to being the age of twelve and finding masturabtion and pornography. Before that I was very outgoing and had loads of confidence. As time went on it started to slip away. My porn use went from watching straight, to trans to gay and back to trans off and on. I never in my life had thoughts of being with a man. I love women and everything about them. And I have no problem with the lgbt community. But for some reason while watching porn you change for that moment. And when the moment is over you feel ashamed but then a day later you repeat it. It’s an evil cycle that goes on and on and now at the age of 31 I’m ready to rid it for good. I have an amazing wife & daughter and a great career. My porn use from the age of 12 has obviously went down from almost 6 times a day to as of a week ago once every other day. I have been clean for 6 days and resisting any urge. I came clean to my wife about this yesterday and almost brought myself to tears. I laid everything out there and said before doing this research I never really saw it as a problem. But why not be the best person I can be. Instead of masturbating and being let down why not build something or read my daughter a story. Life is good and life is short. Be your best.

 

Thank you so much deff a weight off my shoulders

 

Hello and welcome here
The fact that you watched gay porn is because your brain was searching for something different. Your brain was searching for something more stimulating and feel the feelings that you had when watched porn for first time . You brain had to search more extrem porn to have dopamine and getting excited.

What is your plan? The fact that you had a loving woman is good. Did she knows about your porn consumption?
Do you want to leave porn or porn and masturbation?

Hope you'll suceed !

 

I want to leave both. She was understanding from what I gathered. It was hard she questioned my sexuality .

 

Great ! You can make love with her so you won't have any urges.
If you want to masturbate try to do something else (read, play music, sport)
You'll see that time is precious and you'll do something more productive than watch porn and masturbate

 

Awesome thank you so much it took me too long to get here but I’m very excited