Seeking imediate advice from people on my situation, please help!

So, basically what happened in october is that i was having a 1 month long streak without any fantasizing (which for me is insane because i usually last 2 weeks before thoughts start getting to me, but this time i managed to control them) and a lot of urges came up.

I was questioning myself whether or not i should relapse to have these urges go away and i dont know what it was but it really was stupid if i think about it now, it made no sense of me to think that and i guess it was just the addiction putting pressure on me.

I relapsed, and after that, i started again. I went about one and a half months, but the thing is that i was SOOOO sensible to anything sexual.
Even in the mornings, when i`d wake up, i`d have this kind of a burning sensation on my penis as if i was thinking of something sexual and some precum would come out (just like as if i was actually fantasizing). It went on and on, every morning, every day, and i started talking to this girl and thing were going really well, but every time i was thinking about meeting her or going on a date with her the sensation came back instantly.


Usually it would go away in the afternoon completely, and would only happen in the morning.
I relapsed again, even though i didnt feel like it. I only did it because i thought that the feeling would go away, and now that i have the ability to control my thoughts and not fantasize (which for me is the hardest part), things would go amazing.

I currently have about 47 days of streak, and the feeling is still there. I am OBNOXIOUSLY sensible to sexual stuff
or anything, pretty much
i could get turned on from hugging a girl romantically, but not always.
If i see a scene of a couple making out, the same would happen. Extremely sensible to anything pretty much.

And this feeling is really really annoying because i get precum SO easily and its a frustrating feeling.

Some of the benefits are there, but I KNOW FOR A FACT that if i didnt have this feeling every day i would arise from this addiction so much better.....

Please help, tell me if this is normal, if you have encountered it, and if i should relapse or not....
In the past i have had a 200 day streak but it was pointless because i was fantasizing LIKE CRAZY and was just basically making up porn in my head,and i do not want to waste 200 days again...


THANK YOU ALL IN ADVANCE ;((

 

im a virgin and havent even had oral sex or smth, so i dont see the point of that.
and yeah i have been trying to stay off pmo for like 4 years, and in the past 2 years or so i have made tremendous progres, even goin 200 days without it
thing is i remember summer last year i had the same sensation for a few weeks after which i relapsed and it went away
i didnt really take notice of it because it was something new and had no idea what it was, thats exactly the reason for which im asking if i should or not relapse, even if i dont really feel the need or want to

 

yeah, i have been an addict for 9 years aprox

 

so you believe it will go away, provided i stay focused and try to avoid getting the feeling as much as possible ?

 

Thank you!!
This was actually quite inspirational

 

i had kinda lost hope it would go away because it has been here for like 40-50 days, even if i always try to get over it and drift my mind to somewhere else
Just last night i had a dream in which i was literally on my phone on 3 different porn sites looking for videos and then, in my dream, i believed that i relapsed and suddently got that intense guilt feeling.

You cannot possibly understand how relieved i was when i woke up
I was just like "i never want to experience that feeling AGAIN".
Still, this precum and super sensitive thingy is really annoying me

 

by the way, what is the pink elephant analogy ?

 

ohhh okaayyy
i get it now
thanks for taking the time to explain ;D