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When you feel so bad you stop caring?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by skaterdrew, Jan 20, 2020.

  1. Jan 20, 2020 #1
    skaterdrew

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    That's basically how I feel right now.

    The thing is I am also suffering from mental health problems. I have basically went in to a mindset over the last few days where all I want to do is drink alcohol and jack off to porn. I almost feel like I have stopped caring.

    The thing is living healthy, not drinking, not jacking off to porn, eating healthy, exercising is not making me feel better mentally. If living healthy made me feel better then yeah it would be worth it, but what's the point if I feel as bad as this even when I am living healthy?

    I have actually been getting a lot of suicidal thoughts recently. This has been something that I have had on and off for years though. But yeah I almost just don't see the point in trying anymore. Like I said if living clean and healthy gave me results, causing me to feel better mentally, then yeah great. But the issue is it doesn't
     
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  2. Jan 20, 2020 #2
    Uncomfortably Numb

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    When you feel so bad you stop caring?

    This is the time to get help... professional help or at least support from us on this site.
    Please try a reboot... we are here to support you.
     
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  3. Jan 20, 2020 #3
    skaterdrew

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    I've tried to fight this for years not being on medication. But it's becoming more and more clear to me that the only thing that helps me is anti depressants.

    I don't want to go on anti depressants because of the extreme sexual side effects. But I can't carry on feeling like this either.
     
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  4. Jan 20, 2020 #4
    Uncomfortably Numb

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    Speaking from experience... anti depressants will help as PART of the solution.
    You need all the help you can get to get through this
     
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  5. Jan 20, 2020 #5
    skaterdrew

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    The thing is I have had therapy three times. So three different talk therapies, exposure therapy, anxiety groups, voluntary work, eating healthy, exercise, living clean. These are things I have done for long periods of time for years, and nothing helps. I very rarely feel stable for long. I'm lucky if I get a full day I feel ok.

    But then when I was on prozac I felt like I didn't have mental health problems. But it gave me severe sexual side effects.
     
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  6. Jan 20, 2020 #6
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    that is what exactly happened to me 6-7 months ago , doctors told me that I have a long-term-deep-depression and they advice me to go to a psychological-Health station and living there for 4 weeks in order to remove my depression .

    so all the improvements in your body are not enough to strengthen your mental , so what about looking for Improving something else , something none physical ,something that gives you a reason for life , something that gives you a reason for more improvements , something inside you .take your time and think about it .
     
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  7. Feb 17, 2020 #7
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    [QUOTE = "skaterdrew, post: 2401303, üye: 307701"] Temelde şu anda böyle hissediyorum.

    Mesele şu ki ben de akıl sağlığı sorunları yaşıyorum. Temelde son birkaç gün içinde bir zihniyete girdim, tek istediğim alkol içmek ve pornoya çıkmak. Neredeyse umursamadığımı hissediyorum.

    Mesele sağlıklı yaşamak, içmemek, pornoya kıpırdatmamak, sağlıklı yemek, egzersiz yapmak beni zihinsel olarak daha iyi hissettirmiyor. Eğer sağlıklı yaşamak beni daha iyi hissettiriyorsa, evet buna değer olurdu, ama sağlıklı yaşarken bile bu kadar kötü hissetmemin anlamı nedir?

    Aslında son zamanlarda birçok intihar düşüncesi alıyorum. Bu, yıllardır açıp kapadığım bir şeydi. Ama evet, artık denemenin nedenini neredeyse görmüyorum. Dediğim gibi, temiz ve sağlıklı yaşamak bana sonuç verirse, zihinsel olarak daha iyi hissetmeme neden olur, o zaman harika. Ama sorun şu değil [/ QUOTE]
    Hayatımızda doğru bir amaç bulursak ve bu amaca göre yaşarsak, o zaman kendimizlede barışık oluruz ve kendimizi düşünmeye başlayabiliriz. Şuda varki spor yapmak, porno ve masturbasyon gibi şeylerden uzak durmak seni hayata bağlar.Seni daha özgüvenli yapar. En etkili çözüm doğa ile iç içe yaşamaktır.
     
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  8. Feb 17, 2020 #8
    Indurian

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    I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. Quitting all the behaviours you described is something that I have also done. It makes me face the issues I was masking though and that is pretty tough. It is definitely worthwhile though. Keep trying. It's the only way way to break through it all. You are young to have come to the realisation that you have.
     
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  9. Feb 17, 2020 #9
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    Why do you bother telling us if you do not care anymore?

    You come here and post same thing over and over, I am depressed, I am depressed, I am depressed, I am depressed I do not care anymore.

    We know you are depressed, we know you drink, we know you abuse porn, we know you have no self esteem and we know you are suicidal. We know all that, and we cant help you, because this is a forum not support group.

    You are not here to get better, you are here to get pat on the back, to hear that someone cares and feels sorry for you. That has to stop.

    Go get some help, find new doctor, join groups, do whatever, just stop coming here to tell us how much you do not care anymore.
     
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  10. Feb 17, 2020 #10
    skaterdrew

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    Why do you bother reading my posts or replying to my posts if you have no interest in doing so?

    Jeezo I wrote this post a month ago. Just stop reading my posts if they annoy you, piss you off and offend you that much. Just don't read my posts and don't reply to them. Simple.
     
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  11. Feb 19, 2020 #11
    Overforme

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    Look man, that was major harsh. Sk8 doesnt need to be mistreated. He needs this outlet man. We all need this outlet. Sk8 is one of us, but in a lot more pain. What if you were him and someone told him all that bs you told him.
    FACTS: Sk8 needs our help. We should help him. If his posts bother you, dont read them! Plain and simple.
    Sk8 man - I was very serious - when I said you should contact a psychiatrist.
     
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