THE 100 DAY SPARTAN CHALLENGE (OPEN)

Day 36/100.

 

DAY 0/100

1. RELAPSE REPORT---
   I had relapsed a lot of times since last falling but not now I am out of my senses and it's a red alert for because in the coming month a lot of important exams are lined up and if I slip in that exam there will be worst consequences that will affect my future so I just want to be in my senses until this exam.
   
   I'm fapping a lot and I want to confess that it affect my productivity. My zombie phase is still running but no not now I have decided to escape this vicious cycle and be PMO free. These are the mistakes I did since last 10 days from when I slipped first time--
   1. Not did meditation so, from now on I have decided to do meditation 1 hour/day without fail and from 18:00 to 19:00 daily.
   2. I had watched TV series which contain nudity to which I was not able to withstand so, solution is I have simply replaced it with stand up comedy.
   3. Thoughts or flashback of P so the solution for this is to chant a holy mantra or the name of god or just imagine a siren whenever evil thought arises in mind.
   4. The biggest reason of this series of relapse is that I am not following my routine so the most important thing that I must have to do is to plan my day and stick to it no matter how I feel.
   5. I'm not doing yoga and exercises which act as a dopamine booster for me from now on I will do yoga for 20 minutes and running for 20 minutes in the morning.
   6. Final reason for my failure is not checking in my daily journal and updating my status quo so final thing is to update in this journal without any excuse in this thread daily.
   so, these are the things I must have to do in order to take my life back on track. This time I will hit hard not harder.
   confession:-
   I have to confess that I had used porn and also online cam to satisfy myself. What I did was I just sit infront of my laptop totally naked and surfing for mate for satisfying me and this shit I can't take it man I am not able to look myself in mirror and I am guilty for what I did to myself it really piss me off and also I met a girl probably 18 and did what I told her to do it really shook me and damage me from within so I had not did such kind of thing in my life it was the first time I did such insanity and I regret alot. So I have to stop all these nuisance.
   I hope I can and I will cope this fucking thing.

 

That will reduce anxiety a lot. Good choice. Stay strong Spartan!

 

Wow man this is INCREDIBLE!!!
Way to go!!!

 

Congrats on making it to 100 days! It is an incredible achievement. Few Spartans have made it to the end.
Don’t beat yourself up. Like you said, just pick up where you left off.

 

Thanks for sharing Spartan. Again and again you have inspired and motivated me. I’m glad you are here!

 

Just keep taking it one day at a time friend, and be proud of the days you won so far.

 

Sounds like you have the right approach.
Many spiritual traditions have a discussion about it. I think the limitation is when people think it is only about retention. You have the right idea in terms of choosing a focus. I like to think about energy management. And looking for ways to stop wasting energy. And ways to direct it. Everyone has their own journey. Some people need to quit smoking and start running. Some people need to quit drinking and start lifting. Look through your life and reduce behaviours that waste your energy. And focus on activities that are positive investments.

 

Check In Day 1(41)

Hello Spartans,

I’m still working hard with my research project. The writing is going well this week and although I’m still a couple of weeks away from finishing I’m keeping my mind on positive thoughts. I’m taking my ‘positivity’ vitamin everyday by watching or listening to people delivering encouraging messages. It is so important for me right now.

Had an interesting experience at Starbucks. The barista was a sweet and bubbly college girl. I didn’t hit on her or try to charm her. I just enjoyed her smile and kept the discussion to my order. When she gave me the receipt my hand and her hand made contact but I didn’t think much of it. I wasn’t trying to get her attention so I wasn’t really looking for any signs of interest from her. Anyway, I slowly felt this kind of almost euphoria washing over me as I waited for my order. It was the strangest thing. Almost like a mild intoxication. I got my order and said thanks with no flirty wink or smirk. And walked out of there. On my way to the car I mumbled something like ‘what the f*** was that all about?’

She was a pretty girl for sure. But I didn’t look at her sexually at any point. Actually I did check her out briefly at one point but I think it was more like my mind trying to understand where the feelings were coming from. I must have some hard wiring that makes it so that the order of female attraction is sexual value first, then other features. Perhaps I was attracted to her but because I had not done the sexual value assessment I didn’t recognize that feeling as attraction. I’m just sort of working this all out here. Sorry for the wandering post. What do you think @Espi1971 is this a post pmo attraction thing? Don’t get me wrong the girl was cute as hell. I just didn’t really look at her through the hottie evaluation lens lol I just enjoyed her being there at that moment idk now I sound like a crazy person. Okay that’s all I’m gonna write

 

Day 44, checking in.

Glory To God!

 

Thank you mate appreciate it, I'm not beating myself up about it, I've still come so far and I can learn from it I think I thought that once I got to 100 days I could relax then I got carried away, but thank you for your encouraging words

 

Thank you for the support throughout this challenge I'm going to leave this challenge now and start on a 7 day challenge I may be back, but I want to start small now, thanks again everybody and good luck!

 

Checking in: Day seven.

 

@Risho here's a post that I thought you might find useful. Have a great day my friend!

https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...y-first-320-days-of-reboot.62938/#post-473978

 

Day (1)60 checking in
Reached another promotion @Kratos_GOW
Speaking about you, how are you my friend? we hope you're taking care of yourself

Speaking for me, yesterday something weird happened.
I had to go to give some extra lesson to some student to get some extra money and I decided to take the tram.
Unfortunately there was a problem on the line so we were stuck at the station, and maybe I am just overthinking about that but it seemed that everybody were relying on me. I mean the driver talked to me to explain the situation and to tell everybody else because before everybody on the tram were asking to me, like I could have known something they didn't.
I mean they all treated like I was some kind of "boss of the crisis" like as said I had known something more than them, when actually I didn't we were in the same situation.

 

Thanks man it's useful..

 

unbelievable my friend @Kratos_GOW , you check while I am writing about your checking. We're connected maybe

 

Occasionally I get a strong gut feeling about a woman, like there is an undeniable, mutual attraction, AKA "chemistry," even in the briefest encounters.

I'm not always spot-on about chemistry, but that doesn't matter to me because I never try to gauge a woman's interest level in me. I pay attention only to my interest level in her.

My opinion: If you like her, then ask her to meet you. This of course means you risk rejection, but what have you got to lose by trying?