this must end.

I did it again. I wasted atleast 5 h yesterday and i think 4 h today watchin porn and masturbating.
I am like hypnotised hour after hour hiding from my family hiding from my self i think.
When i watch porn everything disapears all emotions all my problems, until i ejakulate and the anxiety comes crashing in.

Im new here i rely need help cant keep living like this.
Porn addiction has seriusly fuckt me upp.
I am anxius all the time, my social skills have crashed, i somethimes fell like ending it.
I have been strugling with this i think all my life.
But i think never admitid to myself the severity of my adiction.
Dont want to live like this i will lose everything i love if i continue like this.
Sorry for my bad spelling, not english as my first languish.

 

Dont think that will help, ist it easy to just shut them down.
But i can try it, do you recomed any?
I need to work on my motivation.
I found this site a week and a half ago and made it 8 days clean.
I need to learn and find inspiration from people here.

 

I have never talked to anyone about this problem before.