Stress during reboot / Work related

So i've just been sent home from work due to excessive stress, the computer systems we use are very outdated and cause problems for the customers every day. Nothing gets done about it and we (the employees) just have to get on with it.

Currently I'm only on a 2 day streak although I haven't viewed P in well over a month and my relapses now involve only M and partial O (about 1/3 of semen is released). Prior to this relapse I was on a 15 day streak, before that it was over 3 weeks. So really I'm not just at day 2 if you know what I mean.

Recently I've noticed myself being WAY more assertive and less willing to take crap from people or anything for that matter (including useless f**king computers!). I understand that this is a good thing but I am getting annoyed at silly things and my manager even mentioned that people around me were starting to feel a little uncomfortable. This is the opposite of what I'm trying to achieve...

Is this normal and more importantly will this improve as I continue to move further away from PMO and control my addiction? I have suffered severely over the years with mental health issues and stress has always haunted me but I have been able to control it more over the last year or so until now.

I feel like an idiot.

Thanks

 

No support from the homies.

Relapsed to soft core images.

Fuck.

 

Went in today and the fired me for 'gross misconduct'.

Not really sure what to do at this point. In just one month I've lost a good job, my relationship went down the toilet and I've been diagnosed with a partial detached retina.

Life sure is crap right now.