I am without a doubt an extreme addict.

Something that is becoming much more clear to me is it isn't so much porn that's the problem, it's the way I have used it.

I am in no way saying moderate porn use is ok. But many guys have used porn and artificial sexual stimulation to some extent for many many years. Yet they haven't developed any issues, or very little issues.

I think the big difference between these guys and me is they're not addicts, and I am an addict.

I have been getting longer streaks of no porn and artifical sexual stimulation recently than what I used to get. The last one being 17 days, and then this one being 15 days.

But today I stupidly peaked at porn for 5 minutes today. I found this porn extremely arousing after not seeing anything that aroused me like that for 15 days. This lead me to somewhat not being able to stop thinking about it.

I have also been worrying about something the last few days, and I feel like this didn't help me either.

But tonight I ended up on porn, and it basically turned in to around a 10 hour PMO session. I didn't have one PMO session that lasted 10 hours. But I had 3 PMO sessions that together lasted the most part of 10 hours. Literally 3 to 4 hours flicking about hundreds and hundreds of different content, edging, masturbating, and this was lasting 3 to 4 hours before I was ejaculating. This happened like this 3 different times.

But I actually used to do things like this constantly for years, and I actually used to not even realise how abnormal this was. I just used to think ah well everybody looks at porn. But there's masturbating to porn for 5 or 10 minutes occasionally, and then there is obscene PMO binges that last hours.

It's obvious to me now this is the difference between a casual user and an addict. It the way the person uses it. For as long as I can remember I have always used porn in this binging, edging style. I don't really ever remember using porn casually.

I am a porn addict, and a big one at that. I think really it's a dopamine addict, and edging, flicking about hudreads of different content while masturbating before I ejaculate is the way I get my dopamine fix.

I can't even describe the level of enjoyment and pleasure I was getting from doing this earlier.

But I am seriously realizing just how abnormal this was, Just the way it felt.

But there was some negative effects I noticed. After a good few hours I began to get an extrememly sore head. Now I feel sort of spaced out and fuzzy I guess.

It's just insane. I can't believe I never thought this stuff used to be that much of a problem.

I am a big PMO addict.

My behavouir while on that stuff is far from normal. The amount I want it and how long I want to be on it is abnormal to.

I actually used to think well what else would I rather be doing? I used to think I prefer PMOing more than most things anyway.

But now I think no way I want to be wasting my life and time constantly doing that crap like that.

I am a serious addict. I can't believe it has took me this long to realize it.