relapse felt good

Your used to having a girlfriend and having sex, you respect women nothing wrong with that. You should probably lay off the porn and use the energy to be productive doing other things. Most guys on hear are not only addicted to p.m.o but are having women issues which you don't. Nothing wrong with them doing NoFap and building confidence, reaching goals, and going after sex with women as long as they treat them with respect.

 

If it feels wrong do not do it.

 

I am a LOT older than you, and I don't even know if that makes a difference. But I have noticed a couple things and that is when I relapse after a significant streak anywhere from a couple weeks to over a year, it does feel good-- temporarily. As a matter of fact, my first thought is "How the hell have I gone without THIS?" As I say it fades. But for few blessed hours after relapse I am not thinking sexually at all. That's 'cause I have just fed the snake. (Ever see those pythons after they've swallowed something really big? They just lay there for awhile in bliss. Or those lions that just lay around after sex).... But if the relapse continues, I quickly get back into constant sexual fantasy and preoccupation. Standing in line at the grocery store, I am picturing every other person blowing me. That ONLY happens when I am PMO'ing and fades when I am not. Every time. You raise an interesting point about something feeling wrong (like abstaining from M to feel more masculine and approach women for sex). I think things can feel wrong because they are unfamiliar or new. I get the idea that if I abstain from PMO the chances go way up for sex with an actual person. And I don't think there is anything wrong with the sex drive itself. But I have found that my fapping doesn't really relieve anything except maybe in the moment,and it makes me more sexually preoccupied, not less, and again, every time I get into it, I move right back into the trap.

 

It look like it does...

 

There is nothing wrong with sexual attraction, in fact one of the effects porn has on the mind is denaturalizing sexual desire to the point where it feels wrong. Everyone's brain has a certain neuronal pathway to interact with sexuality, and if yours is to objectify women in a superficial way trust me, masturbating to porn will only feed that beast. My diagnosis would be go for a 90 days+ streak, let that brain of yours rewire, then you will see a difference in the way you feel attracted towards women.

 

Yeah bro what @Sri Holdanut said was straight facts, you really have to put pressure on yourself to actually see the diamond within you bro. Sounds corny but a little challenge might not hurt you

 

I have noticed my patterns of sexual attraction changing from fantasy to instinctive attraction. When I was using porn, I would see someone I thought was attractive and a fantasy would start playing out in my mind. Now (with a lot of mindfulness practice) the fantasies have pretty much gone, but from time to time I feel attraction in my body. It has nothing to do with my thinking - it's completely involuntary. It doesn't lead me to fantasise about women, and it does not cause any harm to my ordinary social relationships with them either. I don't feel any kind of thought-pressure to do anything about it. It's a rather pleasant feeling.

I believe that the fantasy-type attraction is not real sexual attraction, it's a dissociative state caused by porn and hypersexualised culture. The involuntary feeling in the body is real sexual attraction.

 

The post sounds like you are a proponent of porn. Have you ever talked to girls, what they go through when man frequently watch porn? Lately one told me that guys were texting her on tinder: that they own a leash and would like to go for a walk with her and stuff. WTF? This thoughts are definitly planted by industries, who not give a fuck about female integrity. Let alone think, what perverts they grow. Nobody should hate themselves for who they are, but some dudes would watch even more hardcore videos just to get another 4 second high. The thing is that you might feel no difference, but can you say other people delude themselves for no higher cause but the challenge itself? I doubt that.

 

You are a female troll .

 

Yeah it should feel good. It should be like whole body and for looong, not just half a second on the outer tip of the genital organ !! That is called health. Frequent, unskillful orgasm that ends up in burning ejaculation throws the energy away literally. Cultivate the power.